This will be a terribly long post.
Not to make it up for all of the time that I haven’t been posting…
Well… maybe but I just feel like I have a lot to say.
I have divided up each section. I’ve also added some pictures.
Bear it all,
As I learn to say goodbye.
I have friends that I no longer hang out with and it pretty much drives me nuts. Pretty much….
I have no way of logically explaining it except for the same reason that was given to me and that is that ‘people change’
That is besides the point… well maybe not– but for the purpose of this post to be about more than that.. it is.
Today I went into the financial aid office at Cascade and got some important things worked out. It looks like I won’t have to withdraw as I have been thinking I will have to do (I have been thinking about it for a while now given my circumstances). However, some parts of the money situation have been worked out and it would almost be worse for me to stop going (money wise) than to continue and finish the semester. As for next semester, that is all still up in the air.
Why?
Cascade is not a place where you go if you want to explore missions. I like Cascade and the people are great but also not the reason I will attend a college. I have a heart… or… a goal of doing ministry in other countries.. that is where my desire is at.. and even further.. in restricted countries. Countries that typically do not allow for Christians to enter into— why is Cascade not a good place for that? Well.. those places like to look on your record and see what type of institutions you have attended and if they are religiously affiliated or not. Cascade is a part of Oklahoma Christian University, so it would obviously show up with major influence. I don’t want my education to be a barrier of what I want to do. That is why I do not believe I should be at Cascade.. or any other biblical college.
Also…
I think it is worth noting that if a person (say… me) is going along and planning on doing any type of ministry… how do I plan on going overseas and doing ministry if I have opportunities right here in the states? What I mean, is by going to a community college or any state school I have 1000% more opportunities to show and let people know about Christ not only by word, but by action.
That is it.
That is my deal on school.. that is where I am at right now.
I almost feel a little bugged right now.. about posting things on xanga. I know a lot of people read it now, and some don’t even tell me they do but I have my ways of finding out who does. It never use to bother me that much about who read my ‘online journal’ yadda yadda and even for a while I wanted anyone who was available that knew me.. to read it. That way they would get to know yet another aspect of me.
Anyway after I got things worked out with my financial aid, I went to talk to my greek teacher and he took me in class with another student who missed class.. and went over what I missed. I took notes….. by my phone…
Turned out pretty well.. don’t you think?
Click on it for a bigger view. Fun times indeed…
Tonight I went to a meeting for Tri Phi and Phi Alpha, to get prayer partners. I went and my prayer partner was not around.. ironic of all things.. my prayer partner is Kacie.
I guess it will be okay.. I want to see how it will work. I know we tried to do a prayer partner accountability thing last year and it didn’t turn out for the better. That was before we were told we were prayer partners, we did that as friends. So now for this year we shall see how it shapes up.
A few weeks ago was initiations.. I took a picture when we as a group were doing our project the last night. As you can see, we were all over this house. On the roof, on the sides, inside… but most of the work done was external.
Tonight they informed me of a camping trip this weekend. I already have other plans and will be out of town this weekend…
“too bad. maybe next time”
Not quite how I would put it when I really wanted to go. There may not be a next time….
Court was Tuesday
We waited for 2 almost 3 hours in one line. Only to find out we were supposed to already have been in a court room. Oddly enough while we were waiting in line we were told (when asked) that we were in the right line.
I talked to the judge, he said the notes show that I ‘didn’t know’ that I was doing ‘anything wrong’. Then told that these types of things are rare and complicated. Lowered the initial fine of 242.00 down to 182.00 the min by Oregon state law.
Fantastic. It ruined my day.. why? I wasn’t going to plead guilty… I was going to plead innocent and fight it. However when I “missed” court they put me as a no-show and the process would have been to suspend my licence. Upon finding out that I was downstairs the whole time they said ‘well you should have been up here’ and that was it. So they told me that if I wanted to go downstairs.. wait in the same line for another 2 or 3 hours, reschedule and pay the full fine upfront — it could be done. Then later on if it was needed.. the money would be returned.
No thanks.. thats a crappy system especially when I was in the courthouse the whole time. But whatever… I got screwed. Okay, it was a blessing that I didn’t get the full fine, but geeze.
That is all of the updating I can think of at the time. I did update my music site with a new song.
Speaking of that.. I like this line
‘Drench yourself in words unspoken’
It almost sounds like something I would say (had it not been in a song)
Prayer request? Let me know…
“My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding, and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.” Proverbs 2:1-5
Pray Hard, Seek Harder
Ciao