my life, my words.

March Sixteenth.  How crazy.

News just came today that Nate Dogg died at age 41.  He was young.

In Japan last Friday there was a mega quake of 8.9 that tore up the city.  A tsunami came through and ravaged half of the eastern coast.  Meanwhile waves were sent as far as Mexico and even further south.  California and Oregon reported some heavy damage and at least one death was reported due to the waves.

Couldn’t get much worse right?  Wrong.  Then due to all of the earthquakes and subsequent aftershocks every hour or less… the nuclear reactor in Japan is now in high danger of releasing deadly radiation.  Not just one reactor, but I think there are a total of 4.  The US, UK and other countries are attempting to help yet from the outside it doesn’t appear so hopeful.  It is so sad, please pray for everyone who is dealing with this tragedy and for those helping out.

I heard a news story yesterday that said something along the lines of the following: If you take a job that is below you – or that pays lower than you were looking for, or that you have a low level of satisfaction with, mentally it is much worse for you and you will subsequently be more unhappy/negative than you would have been without finding a job what so ever.

Good to know.  Not that I can find a job anyway.  The news article was actually supposed to be for someone who can’t find a job, saying that it’s better off that you don’t find one until you get one that you would be a good fit for.

I’ve still been searching for a job in various places.  I am still having next to no luck finding anything.  Blah…

Tomorrow is Saint Patrick’s day.  Blazers beat the Mavs last night.  It was a good win for a team that seems to play up to the skills of their opponents.  That’s a bad habit, hopefully they’ll break themselves of it before too much longer.  Might not have enough time.  After all – there are only like 15 games left for us to play before playoffs are to start.

I didn’t notice until now that on my last blog I posted there was a chance for snow.  Well it turns out that we got some snow.  It was enough to cover the ground for a day or so.  That’s the first time it’s happened since living here.  It was cool to see.

My HP continues to have problems.  Nothing too major, but now the problem happens to be that the computer won’t shut down.  Yeah, right?  It shuts down normally but when it gets to the “Shutting down” screen on Windows 7 the computer just hangs in that screen and won’t turn off.  Its annoying.  I’ve done a BIOS update, HP updates, windows updates.  It isn’t just my computer having this problem so it makes me believe that its more of a wide spread problem than HP will let anyone on to.

Last bit of information… I’ve been trying to update the various websites that I maintain.  Implementing new html and other neat codes to give them a refreshed look.  Also adding captcha (when you have to verify the letters/numbers in a box) to reduce spam.  It’s been the biggest thing keeping me busy.  I might update my blog layout and the main site.  I have been meaning to for a while and I think it’ll actually get done sometime soon.

I guess thats all I have for now.

Until next time.

3 days.

Yes there are only three days remaining until Emily’s birthday.  It is kind of surprising that it is already here.  The end of the month.

So this is my second post this month!  It almost reminds me of the days when I use to blog every-single-day.  Or at least close to that because if I missed a day or two I had lots to talk about.  I think part of that might have been my illusion that I was speaking to a number of people.  Now it doesn’t matter to me.  I could be talking to ten thousand people or one person or perhaps just myself.  I blog as a sort of – release.

[Insert personal rant here :// Sometimes I am amazed at what people don’t realize.  They might not realize what I am sacrificing or.. in a way, being made to give up.  People can be very selfish, I know this.  At times I even find myself to be selfish.  It’s frustrating.  I’ve tried to explain things that I am giving up, that I have given up… or that I will be but it usually falls upon deaf ears.  It sometimes feels so one sided, that by you not getting your way.. I am getting my way.  If people aren’t going to be happy with my company then I ask the question: why keep my company?  I wouldn’t.  It’s illogical.  If you are giving up everything you have worked for in your life for me… I don’t want that.  Shouldn’t the point be to be happy?  I don’t see the point in being unhappy if you don’t have to be.  I don’t want anyone to feel forced to be there for me or forced to stick around. \:  End of personal rant ]

On the automotive side: Ford is going to be coming out with a few hybrids that you can plug in.  I think it’s pretty cool.  You can go fully electric or you can use gas.  It’s a preference which they leave to your controls.  This should help with people who are on the fence of getting a fully electric car.  I’d get one if I were making the money to warrant it.

This past weekend I was able to practice some voodoo by getting some Voodoo Doughnuts.  They’re good.  mmhmm

I still do not have any news on finding another job.  I am applying at various places from Seattle to Phoenix.  This week I think I will try to tinker with some web design and perhaps a few new projects.

I am beginning to think that my love for this city is a forbidden love.  Maybe I was only meant to like the sports team and follow them from afar.  I don’t really know.  It doesn’t look too promising.. and if I do have to move from this place I can’t see myself looking to come back for quite a while and even then there would need to be pretty good guarantees in place (better pay on a job, winning the lottery… etc).  It is so disheartening yet it is my reality.  What can I do?  Roll with the punches.  I seem to be pretty good at that.

There is a chance for snow this week on Wednesday, Thursday & Friday.  I know some people hate the idea of it.. but I hope we get it.  I’d love to see it.  Maybe I’d even take some pictures..

Thats all I have for now.  Until next time.