It blows my mind that TEN years has past since that day.
I still remember. I was woken up early that day by my mom who rushed into my room and turned on my TV. She told me I had to see the news and what was going on. There I was, a junior in high school- sleepy eyed and half awake thrown into shock and confusion on what was unfolding before my eyes. Then – an explosion. Now the second tower is in flames. I didn’t know what to think or believe. I was in shock watching these business people hanging outside a sky scraper some 90+ stories above the ground holding on for dear life. Some people fell (or jumped) rather than fight the inevitable death. It was like watching a horror movie but knowing it was all really taking place.
I went to school that day. Half the student body didn’t show up and the rest – like myself – appeared to be in shock. I remember in math class the teacher paused when entering the room, went over to his radio and turned it on. The rest of the period we listened to what was reported. The pentagon. The towers falling. And speculation of another plane headed for the white house? Additional planes they didn’t know about yet?? Our world as we know it was thrown into war. A war on American soil.
We were released early from school that day. I remember walking home and staring at that sad looking flagpole with the flag hanging at half mast. At home I watched the news until I couldn’t keep my eyes open, talking to friends on AIM and really just not knowing what else to expect.
Thankfully that was the extent of the attacks that day. Rescue crews would tirelessly look for survivors over the next week or two, all to come up empty handed. This event has forever reshaped history, domestically and internationally.
9/11/01
Never forget. September.
Can you believe it? In a few days it will have been 10 years since 9 | 11. How fast time moves.
Last week was my first week at Chase. It was a far less desirable outcome than I had secretly hoped for. A whirlwind week at that.
A picture of my training area…
A quick recap: The job makes me sick to my stomach. I can hardly eat a single meal in a days time. My chest consistently feels like there is a spring that keeps winding up, with no let up. A building pressure. I feel anxious a lot. Sigh. On top of that I am also having a difficult time keeping my concentration on the task at hand while at work.
They told us that we have 3 tests that we must score a cumulative score of 85% or better to pass training. On the easiest test I scored 88%. Surely one of the lower scores in the class. Two more, another quiz and a final. We shall see. It’s not the easiest stuff in the world and sometimes I feel so defeated… so alone. I can’t seem to accurately describe things… I just lose the words.
On Tuesday when training resumes I’ll be in the spotlight in front of the class showing how much I truthfully don’t know. Fun times indeed.
Maybe one of these days I’ll find a job that’s a good fit.
On other news- big news at that, my dad was laid off. Yeah- it’s a first in his life that it’s happened. Now he is looking for work and applying for unemployment. That was a trip, I mean he is the hardest worker I know no matter the circumstance or situation, he gives his 110% at all times. How could this happen to him of all people or out of any person?
Hopefully all of these events will segue into something even better. I just can’t help but think that jobs are so hard to come by… even bad ones.
This week Sky leaves for Portland. She shall return the following week. Considering that we spend so much time together – it will be really weird to be apart for any time at all. I’ll miss her, but I’m sure the time will be good for her & well spent with her family.
Last bit of info was that we took Willie to the ER to get checked out as some of his meds were doing some not-so-great things for him. Turns out he needs an MRI, so now that’s in the pipeline.
Here he was in the hospital, with a Cardinals game on in the background.
Jake has been pretty cute lately. He crawls up on my bed at night and he keeps me company nearly all night. It’s becoming a normal thing.
I think that’s it. I’ve started watching Grays Anatomy lately & I must say I really like the show. I’m starting behind a few seasons from the current but, I like it. I’ll probably rent the seasons I haven’t seen from blockbuster to catch up.
I suppose that’s all I have for now.
just Pray.
Tomorrow I start the job at Chase. I am so very under enthused about this job. Gotta keep it positive!
Hard to do.
So last weekend we went to Los Angeles and then drove down to San Diego. It was a fun weekend but there were times that were trying. Then this weekend we went to Flagstaff, Sedona and Prescott. That too was fun, even if it wasn’t as cool as it was the prior weekend.
Here are a couple of pictures I snagged:
There seemed to be less frustration this time around. It’ll be a good way to end the weekend and start the full time work back again.
Not sure if I really spoke on this, but the job with my old co-worker didn’t turn out to be something I could rely on fully. In fact- I had asked if they thought it would be a good idea for me to turn down the Chase job knowing that the upside is so good, but they told me what I was not looking to hear. They said that I should focus on finding a full time job rather than focus solely on the opportunity.
It’s been a very good weekend and I don’t feel like updating any more tonight.
just Pray.