Struggles

I wonder sometimes if I am related to my brother.Don’t get me wrong, he has good qualities. I just sometimes wonder why I have to look hard to find them. I wish it wasn’t that way.I am blown away that he would lay hands on a woman.Blown away.I’ll be honest, when he was living with his wife (Heidi) there were maybe a few times where I kind of did a double take on how he was acting and talking. It made me wonder if something more was lurking nearby. Abuse? Meh, how could he do something as lowly as that? We were brought up better than that.To me, there was no way it could happen. Then again maybe I wanted more than anything to see something good. Or at least have it be so that I wasn’t looking at anything worse than I had already dealt with. You know?Drugs, alcohol, stealing, the incident with Alexis…Enough was enough.Well it turns out that maybe I was on to something. As much as it bothers me to say so. We found out recently that he has been physically and verbally abusive with his girlfriend. Nothing has been confirmed about anyone else… but we are mainly just putting two and two together.What’s worse is that the person he is doing this to, the whole time she is more worried about him (even after she gets hit) than herself. To me this is beyond reasoning. We’ve spoken to her about it and suggested for her to get out of the bad situation she is in. Simple enough.Now it makes more sense as to why she didn’t want to live alone with him.I can take his hatred for his own family, his disrespect for my parents (which bothers me more than anything), his utter distaste for me, wanting nothing to do with our wedding…. him being the self proclaimed ‘black sheep’ of the family and even all the luggage with everything else in his past. But this – I struggle with.Sigh. Prayers are needed for both my brother and his girlfriend. I’d even say it couldn’t hurt if you wanted to pray for his wife, Heidi too. To be honest- my whole family could use some prayers.It has been a fun year hasn’t it? And to think- we’re only half way through!Ok, new topic.

20120608-013741.jpgWe went to a new church last weekend. It was a lot smaller than I thought it would be. It’s not really a bad thing, just unexpected.I kinda feel like a nerd for this next thing. I was at Ralph’s and ran across this:

20120608-013944.jpg If you know the TV show Shark Tank…. Well the guy who makes this product was on the show. He didn’t make a deal but obviously he didn’t need to. It appears as though he is doing just fine.Anyway that’s all I have for this time.just Pray

California Dreamin’

Can you believe it’s already June?!?

That is just crazy.  Anyway.. I had the weirdest dream the other night. (Sunday to Monday).
I had a dream that I was in the house of the woman who plays Juliet (on Grimm). I was in her house talking to her husband and herself. I also remember at one point her husband taking me for a ride in his car (which just so happened to be a Mustang Cobra, midnight blue). It may seem weird but hey, that’s how it went down. In their house (they lived in Portland – same city the show is based in) I asked her if Paul Giamatti lived in Portland as well. In my dream I had for some reason thought that Paul Giamatti (the guy who studded in Lady in the Water) was the same person who played Nick Burkhart in Grimm. She confirmed that he lived in Portland too. I thought that was pretty cool.

 

Then their in-laws visited. They weren’t very nice people, but the grandma of the group was unlike the rest and came right up to me and hugged me. She started to cry. I didn’t know what to do, there was this older lady hugging me and crying. I told her that everything would be OK, that God will bring her through whatever she was going through. She looked up to me and smiled with her tear soaked eyes and cheeks. She then got on her tippy toes and whispered to me a question. She wanted to know if I wanted a cup of her coffee that she made before I left on my trip home. I told her I would love a cup for the road. Then I was asked by the rest of the in-laws how I knew Juliet. I let them know (of course) that I knew her through Maryia my wife. Fun right? I then began to tell them that I loved Grimm and that it’s a pretty big deal. That’s why ABC pre-screened a showing for it, and that I was a part of that as well. (I know NBC produces the show- but I’m being accurate to what I had said in the dream) They agreed and then asked where I lived. I told them I lived in a city in California with a fancy name that I couldn’t remember the name of. I told them I had just moved there but for the life of me could not remember the city name. They laughed and told me it was alright.

 

Then in walked another woman. She introduced herself and asked me the same things the in-laws had just finished asking. She wanted to know how I knew someone with such glamor as everyone in the house (including herself). She told me that she was the wife of the founder of Google.

 

Then I woke up, and off to work I went.

Weird, I know.

just Pray

I feel like…

I feel like I don’t have anything to blog about.

I feel a little like I have been a drone going through the motions day to day.

I don’t like it.

Tonight I am going to go the event called “Reflect”.  It doesn’t seem too bad, a night of worship and prayer…plus it fits my budget.

Speaking of things coming up, it is going to be 110 this week.  I don’t think it’s anything out of the ordinary, I just don’t particularly look forward to it either.

In sports news the Coyotes finally won a game vs the LA Kings.  The series is now 3 – 1.

Hmm.. I’ve been reading a lot more lately.  Strike that.  I have been reading a lot more consistently as of late.  I like that in this one passage I was reading how God kept telling Jerusalem that if they would only return to him… he would not punish them.  (they didn’t, go figure.)  So he took away their water and their food, livestock – heck you name it and it was gone or ruined.  After all this you can sense that God was getting a little fustrated because he said they will meet their maker.  In the book of Amos, chapter 4 verse 12.  “Therefore this is what I will do to you, Israel,  and because I will do this to you, Israel, prepare to meet your God.”  Can’t you image this being said with passion?  Like people say now “prepare to meet your maker!” this is pretty much what God was saying.  How awesome is that?  For one thing alone, God coined that phrase.  Kinda cool right?

Anyway, that’s all I have.

Work is.. work.. kinda makes me feel like a drone.  Like I said earlier.  What can you do?  I try and try.

This past Thursday and Friday were tough.  I don’t know why – but my production has dropped quite a bit.  It has been a big struggle as of late.  Not the work, just pushing those numbers with the type of work I continue to get.  My accounts have been filled with anything from repo’s to refinances to bankruptcies.  Yuck.  Not quick stuff to breeze through.

It is frustrating to say the least.

just Pray.