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Woo

My mouth has been hurting a lot this past weekend

Today I got off work early so I could go see the Doctor, he looked at me again, and eventually refered me to a specialist.

Thats good news – I have an appointment with him tomorrow at 4.

I also got organized in my papers and such… got them in the right places.. so that makes me feel better. I have a slight pain in my mouth.. usually it gets bad at night.. and doesn’t let up.

This morning I was in a lot of pain… I couldn’t eat.. because moving my mouth hurt too much. But I went into work, and thankfully my mom got an appointment for me… I also got more info on school stuff.

Things aren’t goin to bad.. (if you couldn’t tell)

Robert was in today… he was being really nice to me. Also.. they fixed my computer today. Pretty much thats all that computer guy did this morning… was fix my computer.. so it was fixed quicker than a few weeks like last time.

Maybe this week won’t be so bad after all…

Blazers play tonight. Philly – the team Cheeks wantes to coach. I’ll update after the game.

I added a new image for the front of Shoxwave.com – fresh.. and with color!

I got a chance to kick back today

the bad news is tomorrow I have to go work.

Hmmm – yeah.. thats it

Ciao

I worked.

My computer went bust on me again….

Too many callers today.. I dropped one guy off at a totally wrong place because he made me mad.

Yeah.

I came home. Ate, watched the Blazers game.. they won by 19. (1-1)

Ciao

I worked?

I told Sabrina that.. I think I said it out of habbit…. ?

*confused*

I slept in. Felt like crap when I auctually got out of bed at noon time. Why? I hate feeling like I’ve wasted any time of my life anymore. Sleeping in is included. Yes.. even simple joys of sleeping in. The most I want to sleep in to is like what.. 9 or 10 tops? Crazy… I know.

So what did we do tonight? We went and ate out at TGIFridays. (TGIF) and uhm.. yeah This afternoon I watched MTV’s made.. about this girl who was still in school (as senior) and wanted to be homecoming queen. To make the story short.. it was hard at first.. but yes. She got it all – the guy.. the nomination.. and the title of homecoming queen. So this sounds like a really fun halloween right? Its the norm. So was there really anything else that I feel I have to put online? That I can just repeat to my girlfriend if she calls me back tonight? I’m not sure. I’m really not sure. But what the heck.. why not!

I watched a basketball game… on NBALP and saw the Raptors and Wizards. Didn’t get to finish the game.

I seem to be working BACKWARDS or just all over the place on talking about my day.. so what the heck… lets go in reverse!

The reason we ate at TGIfridays is because I heard this commercial on 101.5 the zone that if you test drove a car that they would give you a 25 dollar gift card to the resturant. We drove to the place.. and they said that they didn’t have any more coupons. It kinda sucked because we drove a pretty long way to this dealership just for them to tell us that they didn’t have anymore *especially when my mom called ahead making sure that it was still going on until later that night*

Pretty fun. MORE IN REVERSE

Why was I listening to the Zone? I’m sure some of you might wonder.. considering how I am not currently driving.

I went to get a haircut!

Infact here’z how my day went.

I work up at 12.. and didn’t get up til 12:45

Rinsed myself off and ate lunch at 1pm

After eating lunch I checked email n such

Then I watched MTV’s Made at 2pm. Lasted til 3pm *mom wanted to know when we were going to go.. I said 3 (after the show)*

After driving around for a while trying to find this one place.. we give up and go to a place close to our house *we had a coupon but they had a messup when typing the instructions*

When we finally arrived at Supercuts.. they took the coupon we had. (was at 3:40)

They had one woman working, with about 3 people infront of me. Bout’ 40 minutes later I am up.

Got my haircut.. so we got out of the place at like what… 4:30?

So on the way home my mom had to go inside the bank to cash a check. While shes in.. I turn on The Zone.

On the way home… we talk about what the V means in V6 or V8 (the engine is shaped like a V.. I’m serious.. thats the only reason.. we ASKED my dad!) And just other nonsense. So we got home. and I went to wached TV

After my dad got home.. we told him about this place that was supposed to give the 25 dollar gift card to the resturant.. and there you go. He was reluctant but he went along anyway.

We went.. Got home.. it was almost 9. My parents saw trick-or-treeters by the house.. so they went driving around.

I called up Sabrina – she talked to my parents.. and said bye to me at 9:30. I didn’t say I love you back.. (was in front of parents) .. they know.. but it was ackward.. and now I feel bad.

We got home.. and here I am. Typing on Xanga. Its now 9:57. I have work tomorrow. So I’m going to probably take a shower after another song or two from Jars of Clay.

Thats it. I think I’ve made this long enough

Ciao.. Happy halloween to all

Poem Title : Passing Rain

Passing Rain
Promises built on a foundation of mud..
And, yes…
It is too late to keep these promises
Ghosts of what a friend use to mean.
I feel as though I am struggling to find myself,
Needing to make up all of the time I have wasted, – to find myself?
Finally catching up I rest – panting, gasping, and trying to catch my breath
And I fall behind as the golden leaves once again fall into my palms.
The scene is surreal.
The wind whisks up the leaves and they brush against my legs as I stand still
Totally numb from all feeling.
Give me something, for I can not take this…
As you sit at an all you can eat character assassination feast
This is the night
With me as the main show.
And once again I am in the car stuck in the mud, wheels spinning
The drivers sick of this game with Nature – screaming to the sky for help
And still getting no where.
I Scream for you.
So loudly that the glass shatters and crashes upon my faith and crumbles to the earth
It is not about religion. It is about faith…
That one thing stretches deeper and wider into me than anything else,
Like the purified water that trickles off of my skull.
I don’t really know what I’m asking anymore..
In fact I think I’ve lost myself in the question…
So I bow my head and return to the maker, helpless as I always have been.
I need your help to get through this
Forgive me for ever losing sight,
I was blind, like those words you whispered in my ear.

Date Published : 10/30/03

Author : J.A.D. © 2003

My x-rays came back and I don’t have any broken bones or any bone damage. It came as such a friggin big suprise to me.

I went back to the doctor, and he gave me some other meds I should take for the next 6 days, if they don’t work.. I’m supposed to call him again.

I changed my carriers. Starting November I will have a different provider.. (for cell phone service) new number and all. Yay. It’s about time. And so that is that, so far.. on my first phone call to the new company – I had to speak to a supervisior… to complament the person taking the call. His name happened to be Jason. Woo go figure.

Work has been just that…. work. It has been okay.. I don’t really have anybody cool or stupid to talk about… more over.. just everyone is regular and everything so less…. outrageous when you handle customers like I do.

Blazers opened the season yesterday – and they lost. Record : 0 – 1

I feel as tho I am still struggling to find myself and am like a car with wheels in mud.. spinning.. using all of my gas.. and still getting no where. But that will change really soon now.

The two things I have going for me are my family and Sabrina, and in that same breath….

I am disappointed. In one person.. as I have been the past 24 hours or so since I’ve learned what I’ve learned. This is all I will mention of this, and I will say no more.

*shakes head* whatever. who cares, its too late to keep promises anyway.

Promises built on a foundation of mud.

NBA Season starts NOW! Yay!

I went to the x-ray people today.. to find out they just wanted to find out if my jaw was broken.

So they took x-rays of my jaw. What Idiots! And the woman gave me attitude when asking me if I got in a fight or somethin. I’m all.. “No.. I have pain in my left side —- ” so she cut me off and was all.. “Well thats fine! I just need to tell the doctor what he needs to look for and we don’t x-ray muscle.” Heh.. got me mad. I left without paying a charge. (I think you have to pay a co-pay) I was like.. SCREW that. I didn’t want to find out if its broke. I can tell if it is.. its NOT. Okay, I’m jettin. heh.. nobody said anything… but nobody was upfront *shrugs*

And…. Sprint still hasn’t called… *looks at clock* Do you Really think It’s going to happen? Me neither.

I’m sittin back.. chillin.. to CLASSICAL. Yes – the song.. Beethoven’s 7th Symphony. Woop woop

Nothin else goin on.. *thinks* nope.

Oh…. Robert took tomorrow off so I won’t seem him until Monday. *smiles*

K – I’m done now.. I swear.

Ciao

I hope you all like my spiffy new picture. Woop woop

Anyway.. on with the show.. and my productive… day….

I called up Sprint and complained about a mister Damon Rucker from TN.

They told me his supervisior would be getting back to me in 48 hours or less. *sets watch to see if it happens* SO if by 6:00pm (Arizona time) on Wednesday I haven’t heard anything.. I’m gunna call them and.. heh.. lets just say I’m not going to be too happy if it comes to that.

The stupid woman who took my call got me mad right away. I’m all.. who do I speak to about getting an overage of minutes waived? She’s all.. well I have to start with your area code first – I’m like.. “Okay…. ### – ### – #### … okay sir that was.. ###…???? I was like.. *repeated number* So that was… ###…and what was the rest? *yells* IT WAS ### – ### – #### OKAY? So she says.. Sir you don’t have to Yell *cough*Uh.. *replies* Then LISTEN TO ME WHEN I’M TALKING TO YOU.

Gah. *slaps forehead* She made my day better. I found out I don’t have any overage in my minutes…like Damon said I did, and she refered me to the supervisior’s supervisior.. (Damons supervisior) saying that she had done a lot of these because of Damon. Pronounced.. Daaaaa mon. not like Day… more like.. dah! lol.. got it? Think of it as Dah Mon *laughs*

Okay. I had a pretty good day.. it went quick. I haven’t been sleeping well due to the pain in my mouth.. so I called the doctors and they want me to get some x-rays done tomorrow.

Fun. More money.

And uh… I turned in my schedule bid. Today was the last day to do it.. so its a good thing I did! heh
Hmm.. because of those fires in Cali, they moved the San Diego Chargers game to the Sun Devil Stadium… and hey.. its a free game. I wouldn’t go.. and didn’t. I wouldn’t go by myself.. and I don’t prefer football.

Robert took some jabs at me today about the Yankees… maybe he didn’t mean any harm.. but I coulda ripped his head off when he was saying it. Its all… *I said to him* “You don’t care about sports, but now all of the sudden you do?.. well either way.. the Yankees have won the most out of ANY franchise anywhere… Ever. You can’t Top that.” He kept saying “oh well with that much money.. blah blah blah” Yeah..yeah… whatever Robert.

Haters. *glares at everyone who knows they are*

Yeah thats it.

Ciao

Yankees Lost.

Blazers Won.

I had a good time with Emily when we went to the Suns game…

My mouth has been hurting a little bit more.. due to the fact that since the game (friday) I’ve taken two pills. I’m trying to not take them anymore, so.. I hope it doesn’t hurt… so I don’t have to take any.

Anyway…. 29 pills left out of 30 in my bottle (since refill).

NBA Season starts Wednesday… Yay

I need to turn in my schedule bid tomorrow…. so I can hopefully get one of the 8 shifts I am applying for. (they want us to turn in 20 requests).. so hopefully they don’t get mad.

I’m updating this because I see that Sabrina visits a lot. So I am going to try and update more- but I’m not going to update if I have nothing to update about. heh.. makes sense doesnt it?

I think I may go with ATT wireless.. or Nextel… I’m not sure which..

K thats it

ciao

Yankees have to win the next two game or they will not win the World Series.

Flordia needs to in one more game.

The rain delayed game, was won by the Marlins.

FYI – I love Basketball. Baseball is a second.. and I really only follow my teams in the playoffs. Its too boring… Yanno?

At least basketball season is coming up right?

Tonight : Basketball game : NBA Preseason : Blazers vs Suns

Where? : America West Arena

Who? : Emily, Me.. and a few other Blazer fans scattered in the crowd.

Why the lack of updates? I’ve been busy. And I’ve also been tired.

Its a little after 1, and Emily is going to pick me up at 5 or 5:30 depending on when she gets down here. For some reason – I love the Blazers and the NBA, but this game.. is like.. ehhh okay whatever. Not too important to me, but on the other hand, I would like to see my team play, and it gives me something to do on my off day. (today)

Work updates – We are going to have a schedule bid. It really sucks, but some things you just can’t control. So there goes my off days that I’ve had, and there goes my whole schedule for my daily life. Fun stuff… no really….

The dentist subject – I went to go to talk to him, and he said he couldn’t do anything for me. My mom at the time.. was having mouth pains because of one of her teeth, and at the current time she doesn’t have any dental insurance.. so to make a long story short… he said that he would take a look at her and perscribe her some medicine and then we could call it “even”. (he wouldn’t charge her) So thats what we did.

Sprint – Welcome to the worst customer service ever. I have (along with the many many many other problems that I’ve had with them) been getting charged for my unlimited minutes. Infact I had apparently charged up about 1000 minutes over my plan because they charged me for my free minutes. So I had to call them and get everything straightened out. I called them up and asked if they were going to do anything to try and keep my business (my contract ends in a month) and they basicaly said No. So does any know of any good plans or any good cell phone companies? My cell phone I have now is going to be given to Emily. She still has sprint and sprint phones can only be used with sprint. Sucks doesnt it, but I guess no business or individual is going to help anyone anymore in this time and age.

Personal Thought – Those companies and people most likely think that I’m just some 19 year old trying to stir up some trouble, or maybe just trying to get something for free or discounted. Oh well. I’m not going to fret about it.

Okay, so anyway.. I didn’t post for a while.. so now I have. Enjoy