People think that I am crazy. I don’t care. I’m tired of worrying about what other people think. If you have something negative to say, you should keep it to yourself. For some reason people have this crazy idea, this crazy notion that I like to move. As if I do it for fun… as if my family does it for fun. That is absurd! Why would anyone do such a thing? Moving is one of the most stressful things that you can do in life. At least that’s what the research says. We moved again. Yes. Again. Back to California, and it is because of a job offer that my dad had received. I know by now you probably have thought of some snide comment or some rude remark, some joke that you would like to tell me about how many times I have moved from here to there. I remember all of the things that people have said to me over the years and it makes me sick. I think it’s pretty bad when I don’t feel like I can talk about something on my own blog. No, I haven’t told anyone about our moving. It works for us. Sky and myself are getting married in a couple of months (less than that now). It is taking place in California on the coast, so yes.. it works for us. We weren’t fans of having to be stuck in Arizona for who knows how long. Besides, the cutbacks at the state level made it harder to find work… and with not making enough money to make it on our own.. finding any place would be very rough. Is it a permanent solution to where Sky and myself will be living? No. We are applying locally and we hope to find work. If things don’t work out then we will have to search where ever we can find work. However we will and do have a parameter that we will be searching within. So yes, the cat is out of the bag. I gave my notice to Toyota at the end of May. We are moving onto the next chapter in our lives. Where that will lead us nobody knows, not even us. As for my parents? They are doing their best to make sure that they are both happy and are both living in a place that gives each of them happiness. I know that they would love to stay in this state and now with this job they have their best shot at doing so. So, the job search has resumed and I am actively looking for work. I am not enjoying being back with the masses of the unemployed. Even though the job at Toyota wasn’t what I had originally hoped for it still was something. Again, if I haven’t made it clear – I am tired of all the comments about my moving back and forth. If you really want to know why you didn’t know ahead of time… it is because you have said something. Just think, what I’ve said practically applies to every single one of my friends. Sad. That’s all I have for this time. Until next time. just Pray.

Is it bad that I am not worried?

My brother and Kris have been missing for a couple of days now. I have to be honest, I’m mostly worried about Kris… & not as worried about Michael. I’m not really sure what to think. We have called their place of work (IHOP) and they told us that Kris doesn’t work there anymore. They didn’t say that Michael doesn’t work there anymore they just told us that he wasn’t currently at work.

My parents have been worried. My dad has checked with Social Security to see if they had died. They haven’t. Or at least not according to the current record of the Social Security administration. We even checked with her family in the Northwest, but they haven’t seen or heard from her in a few days. I think that’s when my mom started to get a little worried. I’m not really sure what to think but I can’t help but feel that maybe, well just maybe people are getting worked up over nothing.

Despite the events- everything is still a mess. Just the way that Michael has treated my parents is incomprehensible or simply beyond reason. I don’t see how someone can love someone and do what he is doing and has done to them. I don’t even care what he has said or done to me – I only wish that he could truly understand, or care to understand how little he makes my dad feel.

Reality check: You know, at times… I think God feels that way about us.

I can’t really say that I want anything to do with either of them. I can’t say that I feel too sorry for her either because she is choosing to be in a horrible situation that all of my family has told her to remove herself from. My family offered to give her a place to stay and a way to finally get out from under the abuse. And my brother? Is he changing? I don’t know. I’m not writing him off, I’ve never written anybody off. Especially not my brother and not after everything that we have been through. I just am a little fed up right now with his actions. I’ll leave it at that.

Yeah, I imagine that if anything has happened to them I’ll regret saying as much, but maybe not.

So, if you could – keep them in your prayers.

On a side note: This is probably my laziest blog ever. I’ve never had a whole blog typed for me and not need to edit or type 99% of the words. I suppose this is one of the cool things about Siri. She dictates speech & turns it into text. I like it.

I occasionally hear the most random sounds in this house. Like a door slamming, or a rustling in the bush outside… It is hardly ever dull at night.

I don’t have a lot more, but I’ll leave this post ending on a light note. Below is a picture of Max after I woke him up a couple of days ago.

He’s kinda cute isn’t he?

I suppose that’s all I have this time & speaking of prayers… I should probably go do mine.

just Pray.

I wonder sometimes if I am related to my brother.

Don’t get me wrong, he has good qualities. I just sometimes wonder why I have to look hard to find them. I wish it wasn’t that way.

I am blown away that he would lay hands on a woman.

Blown away.

I’ll be honest, when he was living with his wife (Heidi) there were maybe a few times where I kind of did a double take on how he was acting and talking. It made me wonder if something more was lurking nearby. Abuse? Meh, how could he do something as lowly as that? We were brought up better than that.

To me, there was no way it could happen. Then again maybe I wanted more than anything to see something good. Or at least have it be so that I wasn’t looking at anything worse than I had already dealt with. You know?

Drugs, alcohol, stealing, the incident with Alexis…

Enough was enough.

Well it turns out that maybe I was on to something. As much as it bothers me to say so. We found out recently that he has been physically and verbally abusive with his girlfriend. Nothing has been confirmed about anyone else… but we are mainly just putting two and two together.

What’s worse is that the person he is doing this to, the whole time she is more worried about him (even after she gets hit) than herself. To me this is beyond reasoning. We’ve spoken to her about it and suggested for her to get out of the bad situation she is in. Simple enough.

Now it makes more sense as to why she didn’t want to live alone with him.

I can take his hatred for his own family, his disrespect for my parents (which bothers me more than anything), his utter distaste for me, wanting nothing to do with our wedding…. him being the self proclaimed ‘black sheep’ of the family and even all the luggage with everything else in his past. But this – I struggle with.

Sigh. Prayers are needed for both my brother and his girlfriend. I’d even say it couldn’t hurt if you wanted to pray for his wife, Heidi too. To be honest- my whole family could use some prayers.

It has been a fun year hasn’t it? And to think- we’re only half way through!

Ok, new topic.

We went to a new church last weekend. It was a lot smaller than I thought it would be. It’s not really a bad thing, just unexpected.

I kinda feel like a nerd for this next thing. I was at Ralph’s and ran across this:

If you know the TV show Shark Tank…. Well the guy who makes this product was on the show. He didn’t make a deal but obviously he didn’t need to. It appears as though he is doing just fine.

Anyway that’s all I have for this time.

just Pray