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This title seems to imply something positive?

Perhaps.  The truth is: I am getting rather discouraged by this non-job finding atmosphere.  It really bothers me beyond belief .

I am starting to resign to the fact that I will be stuck in a shoddy call center type job long term if I am going to get back to working.  Unfortunately even call center jobs don’t seem to be calling me back on applications.

What is a person to do?  I’ve made a marker to gauge where things are so that if I don’t find something by June I am going to start applying more aggressively at the local retailers.  Target,  Walmart,  JCPenny and the likes.  Not anything I want to do..  but at this point I really need work for my own mental health.  I’ve briefly been applying to those type of jobs in the past months (Ross, retail banks etc) but have gotten no feedback.  It is VERY depressing not being able to find work and watching what was a normal bank account sink down into the 0.00 levels.  Thankfully my bank doesn’t have ANY minimums or fees.  (It’s Ally Bank, the best bank I’ve ever had.)  I’m not necessarily giving up on life per-say.  Just giving up on finding a job that I would actually like to have or work at.  Why keep looking for something that simply isn’t there?  I’ve all but given up on the idea and am trying to move forward (mentally) from that point.  I am forcing myself to think this way.  It has been pretty bad though- I’ve never felt so deeply that I am in a rut that I can’t get out or climb out of than I have recently.  All I get is silence when I pray.  It reminds me of a song that is really one of my favorites.  Not always for the happiest of reasons.  That struggle.  That faith.  That pain.  Ugh.

Anyway, I didn’t want this post to be a complete downer.  Picking up the tone a little bit I will happily report that we have had some rain as of late.  It was nice.  In fact – yesterday there was a chance of snow (it didn’t snow) but it was cold enough for it.  Just no precipitation was left.

Just a photo a took at a stop light  yesterday- I liked the look of the focus on the raindrops instead of the backdrop.

OH!  Last thing.  A video I’ve really liked lately.. it has got my feet moving, my head a bobbin.. haha its something that makes me want to get pumped up.  FF5 and Lecrae.  The song is Cray Button.  I’ve posted the video below.

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rX23_xaWjU]

Otherwise.. that is about it!

Happy (25th if I am counting correctly)  Birthday to Brandy in 2 days!

just Pray

Hello

This week has been a quiet one.  Maryia has been gone since Saturday and will return this Saturday.  She went to the Portland area as her friend was able to fly her out to visit.  Needless to say it has been unusually quiet around the house.

If I ever wonder where she is I just pull up the “Find my friends” app.  Some people don’t like it.  I only use it with immediate family – although I’m not sure I’d care if my friends could see where I’m at.  You can revoke the access at any time.  Anyway…  one night I looked her up and saw that she was 800+ miles north of me.  It was kind of cool because I’m use to seeing a distance of maybe a mile or two, so I got a kick out of seeing her so far away.

Speaking of Apps… I have found a new one that I like.  It is called: “Note to God”

It is a pretty simple/basic app.  It gives you functionality to write a prayer and post it online.  Not a big deal, I know- but the cool part is: anyone who uses the app can see all the different prayer requests people have written.  Some people ask for help from addictions, others are just thanking God for xyz happening.  It is a really good concept. I like it.  Central has (or use to have?) this Prayer team that I was a part of.  It is kind of the same thing.  On the prayer team you were given access to the church website where people submitted prayers.  Then you would pray for the different things that have been sent in.  This is along the same idea – but it opens it up to anyone and it allows for a greater ease of use.  If you have iTunes or an iDevice, you can click here and download it (its a free app).

Hmm… what else?

Next week I’ll have an interview with a temp agency.  I’m not sure if they actually have a job lined up for me or if they just want to interview so they can get it out of the way in case something comes up – either way.  Temp jobs are at least  a job…

So I was watching the BBC this week & a commercial for a new Chef Ramsay show came on.  I got a kick out of the title.

It actually looks good.. I’d be interested to see it.  I think its only going to be on the BBC though.  Luckily I get that channel so I might just have to record it.

So I wanted to add pictures into this post as I haven’t really done a lot of that lately.  I know that I have my instagram feed in the top right side of the page – but I think pictures in posts help to liven things up a bit.  Adding anything to a post now-a-days is so easy.  Wordpress is by far the best blogging tool I have ever used & the latest updates are superb!

Last but not least.. I have been an active eBay user for 10 to 11 years now.  I’ve slowly but surely gotten to 100 feed backs.  Big deal?  Eh.  It was to me.  They even sent me an email congratulating me.  Now if you are one of those people with 1000’s of feedback this is probably not a big deal to you at all.  However it took me 10+ years to reach this accomplishment.  haha

That’s right.  I was a regular blue star, now I’m a Turquoise star.  If you are curious about the stars/reputations, I found a link that gives the low down.  I’ve posted it here.  I suppose that’s all I have for now.

Until next time,

just Pray

P.S.  I have been surprised to find that a lot of people agree that Facebook tends to deteriorate people’s social interactions with friends/family- yet most people say that they are too addicted to stop using it.  They either need the gossip or want to use it as yet another distraction to get their minds off of things.  Obviously this doesn’t go for everyone – just most of the people I have spoken with and/or articles I have read.  (I only thought of bringing this up because of FB’s latest “improvement” that will keep people hooked into their website even more than before.)