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hey baby

I woke up today and thought – 2 more days – If I can make it thru today I should be SET. I made it! AND it went quick! Pretty good huh?

So I’ve been getting more and more excited about meeting you – I just can’t wait. And I Love hearing about you or anything you have to say, you are just So important to me… I love you. I really Love you.

I never thought I’d be in Love again – and if so, Not for like a long long time – and not so soon, and not have a love so pure… a Love so perfect – such as you are.

Thank you Sabrina. I love you with all my heart.

And just think you mean more and more to me each passing day.

Other than that – it sprinkled a little bit here today. Hurricane Marty or something? Its not a hurricane its a depression really 😛 Mkkay.. I’m gunna wait for you to get out of the shower, and then talk to you for the rest of the night.

I LOVE you! And YOU ONLY! Now and forever.

I had a pretty good day..

IT WAS SLOW!

Came home – watched TV and watched a Perfect Murder for the 3rd time? and after my parents got back from looking at some houses (7:15) we ate. I got online, updated shoxwave.com and then Sabrina came online.

I watched the Elen Show, and Richard Simmons is a crazy guy….. to say the least. Funny.. but licking whipped cream off some guys hand he doesn’t even know? ew.

Notta bad day all in all..

So I didn’t post yesterday, first time in like a week or so.. basically first time since I’ve been posting regulary to xanga. I had an okay day yesterday, but my mouth gave me major pain last night and I ended up going to bed at around 8:30 and talking to my baby at 9pm and then again at 11. Fun stuff! I had some good news, that hater (that sabrina calls her friend) had her team lose.. and mine won! Wohooo. Go Seattle. By the way, I looked at an mlb.com site and look what they had as the headline…

“Mariners ready the brooms in Oakland”

Hah. Yay… Go Seattle. But hey – if they lose one that fine. They could win all of them.. I don’t think the A’s suck that bad…. they suck, but that badly? heh… well…. do they?

we will fly when the buildings crumble and when the world ends – note to self – poems

So today, I got a haircut, and thankfully I only have to go through 3 days of work before I have 4 wonderful days off.

Okay, thats it. I might post later.. HA! But I doubt it.

Babe – what was this… “Jason called a couple of times and of course when he did call he and angela were being all erg! heh.” Rawrish.

Today was a good day, like so many others now that I’ve got Sabrina.

So last night we talked, and I really feel like we had some things that needed to be said. I think we can really have a deep long GREAT relationship. I’ve finally found someone great for me.

I talked to her today, for a short while, and it brightend my day in which I practically did nothing but sleep and watch tv or come online. Yeah… So it was good. I love her.

Whenever she needs someone.. I’ll be here for her. Always.

My babys cryin and I don’t know why.

I’ve been tired today, felt like sleeeeping. Sounds good.

Okay, small post today, I’ll talk to you in two seconds!

One.. two. Were talkin.

Today was mmk

Work was slow, and I was falling asleep again at work, but every one has asked me how things have been so I’ve told them: Great.

I talked to my mom this afternoon, shes like “do you have feelings for her?” I’m all “uhhh” so after a while I’m like Duh… and she like.. “yeah I knew” So if you knew why did you ask me? “I knew you knew” rawr. So… then she asked.. “have you and her had serious conversations?” I’m all.. :”yeah” oh… have you told her you love her? “….. Yeah” then she just smiled.

Apparently she is happy that I’ve found someone. I’m all “yeah yeah.. woohoo Jasons got a girl! and I’m gunna get some action in the mall!” she laughed.

Great. Well she knows.. so just figure that my dad knows. 🙂 heh… Anyway…

I watched some tv… got online.. and just been kinda chillin lookin for stuff to do. I haven’t found a whole lot.. but sleep isn’t looking too bad right about now. One week from today I’ll be getting ready to leave.

One week! Add a day, and we meet. *excited*

Thats all – but I hope you have a FANTASTIC time at the cruise dance thing. Mkay… thats all.

Hey baby

Good news – the 25th is ours. Now I just need you to get it cleared and such and we are set.
I almost fell asleep at work today.

The dentist was poking me and making my gums bleed badly, and thats why I was so tired when I came home. My mouth has been hurting all night.

We are flying to SF on the 25th – then going to the redwoods the 26th. Then on the 27 and 28th we are going to drive the rental car back down, but take the coast line. More cost effective…

And uh.. thats what my day has surrounded around.

I haven’t told my parents that I’m ok with them paying for my school yet, that’ll come in time.

Poems from my baby

“I would live in your love”I would live in your love as the sea grasses live in the sea,borne up by each waves as it posses, drawn by each wave that recedesI would empty my soul of the dreams that have gathered in me,I would beat with your heart as it beats, I would follow your soul as it leads.

&

“Song”
You bound strong sandals on my feet,you gave me bread and wine,A sent me under sun and stars,for all the world is mine.

Oh take the sandals off my feetyou know not what you do;for all my world is in your arms,My sun and stars are you.

By Sara Teasdale

After lots of thought, I came to the conclusion that I should probably accept the offer that my parents gave me. I am still going to check with an Honor Academy rep.

I had a good day at work – especially considering it was a Monday. I went in to work – went to training – first two hours. Went on the phone for a 1/2 hour – then went to break. After break, stayed on the phone for 45 minutes. At that time, we had a team meeting (11:30 lasted til 1:00), after the meeting I went on lunch (now its 1:30). Last hour – I was on the phones. Kinda nice. Laid back – easy – and slow. All things said – I didn’t even get a headache.

Excerpt from chat

Josiah Baldwin: you know what I want to do right now!
Josiah Baldwin: drop dead
DCxr7: Cool
DCxr7: You know… kill yourself or something.. you go through more misery than a dog that has been shot twice in the head, just staggering around
Josiah Baldwin: I’d rather you not mock me
Josiah Baldwin: but do w/e you want
DCxr7: I’m not mocking
DCxr7: I’m being serious.

So? Do it already – so anyway…
My baby is swimming – or learning how to heh. SHE is the only one (at this point in time) who can even view these posts – because my friends suck and will probably pry into my life. Screw that – If I wanted them to know – I’d tell them. Ive told them about you… thats not a secret. The thing is – I talk about my life. They don’t care enough to TALK to me.. why should they be able to read up on me? Screw it.. they shouldn’t.

So Hey baby. Whats cookin good lookin? I’ll be online waiting for you.

Last part of chat..

Josiah Baldwin: well, thanks for the advice
Josiah Baldwin: that’s what everyone is telling me tonight
DCxr7: Maybe you should

If he tries anything – I’ll letcha know. lol

I’m having an okay night.

All day was good, I got to talk to Sabrina, and that always keeps me in a good mood.

I went out for dinner, my dad kinda ragged on Oregon a little.. but kept my cool. Then we got into a discussion about school and funding.

My point of view

Leap of faith – if God really wants to go and if I’ve tried really hard to get the money then everything should work out – reguardless of if I have the money when I go down to Texas.

My parents…

If I don’t get the money- they will pay for it. The conversation ended in me telling them that I don’t want them to pay for my school, and if it comes down to it – then i’d rather not go than have them pay for it.

So now I’m just thinking.

My dad had a point on the whole leap of faith thing, about if you have no other resources then go ahead and see what can happen…

I don’t want to put that on my parents. Rawr. Makes me really furious – the fact that I want to be in school so badly, but – I don’t want them paying for it.

Thinking of it from that stand point that my dad had.. – dare I say – makes sense.

So… I’m sittin, thinkin….

The good news : Tomorrow is Monday. The bad news : Tomorrow is Monday.

I just got the worst news of the night for an ugly guy like myself – Sabrina, is beautiful in every way possible. Oh so attractive in every aspect possible, wonderful personality, and everything about her is great. She is wonderful… a million times too good for me. Why is that bad? Because she deserves better, and what can I possibly offer her? That makes it bad. 🙁 guys want someone like her… how long can I keep her happy? 🙁 I can almost spell out the end right now because of how great she really is. Oh yeah, pretty good night huh? … I don’t think so *feels sad* Nothing any one is saying is helping. I should lay down….