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Good songs : Pretty much alll of Hillary Duffs new CD.

*listens to it as he is typing this*

So.. I went to work today.. almost got sent home early. I got to work kinda late.. (10minutes) because of detours. Rawwr. BUT.. I made it up by takin a 5 minute break. Almost was sent home early (as I said) but I wasn’t. Thats a good thing.. I think.

After work I went with my parents to the inspection of the house that they want to buy. I think everything went well. They are going to ask for 90% of the stuff the inspector found to be repaired. Whoo.

On our way to eat.. I was like.. hey why not in n out? My dad’s like – are you serious? (I usually don’t say in n out) Reason I picked it? A week ago today.. in San Jose we ate at In N Out. So… Yeah.

Uh.. we came home. I’m still looking for a car – Go Figure.

I called my baby 3 times throughout the day. I noticed.. why?

I realize… I need to move on from my old friends and be happy with the life that I have (dont worry Sabrina.. you make me completly happy – but I still want friends to hang out with.. yanno.. like you have?) I will do that as soon as I get back in school.

No work tomorrow. I am going to see when classes start (I think its January) So I wanna see the earliest I can get in. Other than that? Nothin.

Mmmhmm. I think I’m done. I’ll be online tonight. Rumor has it that after my parents get back from their bike ride… that they are going to bring home 2Fast 2Furious! Whooo. (hasn’t seen it yet) Thats it! I swear! (posts before he says anything more)

Hello, I’m Dreaming. I suppose I’ll stay in this dream forever.

I was woken up by beauty. Sabrina Called me to wake me up!! Ahh … I got up good and had a preeeetyyy good day.

I sat around, didn’t do much – but it was my day off.. what do you expect?
Then all night I talked to my baby! Ahh..she drives me CRAZY! Completly INSANE! Woohoo.

Mmmkay, thats it. I’m goin to take a shower and then talk to her!

hey – my baby wrote me a poem.

Cobra

His eyes describe a lake in the center of an island
When I stare into the eyes,
The feeling sweeps over my heart like a sheer lace of joy
His lips are as soft as a baby’s skin
His smile melts my heart into a puddle
Containing first tears drops from a new mother and her child

When I hear his voice,
The darkness fades as my happiness over powers
When I see his face,
The sun returns as the morning sun
When I think of his love,
The stars shine so bright in the night sky,
That it blinds me
My soul glows like a new star in space.

BY SNK

Nobody has ever written me a poem before. Then.. you read this.. and its all “wow” or “oh my goodness” kinda like…. WONDERFUL. You know what I mean? The kind of wonderful you can only find in Sabrina. The kind of happiness she and she only – can only pour into my soul. She is truly a Godsend.

GUYS – BACK OFF!!! She’s Mine. And believe me, she ain’t goin anywhere.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY!

I love you SO much, thank you for everything.

So whatsup with today?

I went to work – got an hour of citibank training.. that was cool because it got me off the phones for an hour.

Then I came home… got online…. and talked to my baby.

Yeah – I’d say it was a pretty non-productive day.

And whats her view on religon?

I had an okay day. I called HA today to let them know. They didn’t want to let me go… its not because they woulda missed me.. its more like.. they wanted to stop me from making like the biggest decision in my life – the whole while telling me things like.. “you shouldn’t even be dating her” and stuff like that. I had a 45 minute convo with them, I ended up taking an hour and 15 min lunch… heh My lunches only last 30 minutes.

Then I talked to my mom bout it for a good part of the afternoon

And now?….

I have deicided I am not going to go to the Honor Academy… becuase if I did.. I would have to break it off with Sabrina. I love her too much to let her go. College? Coummunity college is what I’m going to do.

I’m going to buy a car,.. keep my job at Sears and pursue this relationship with Sabrina.

I had a hecka long conversation with Sabrina tonight.. and it was really good to talk with her and figure out what we both wanted in this relationship. We both want the same thing.. both are on the same track.. and.. its – crazy.

Things are going to change.. for the better. I can’t wait.

Sunday – September 28th 2003 *today current*

We woke up and checked out of the hotel by 10am, then we just went and drove the whole day. My mom wanted to stop by a beach but my dad said no. We got back in Phoenix around 6pm… and yeah. I’ve kinda had a knot in my stomach the whole day. I’ve been straight missin her this whole time. I wrote a poem for her that you can check out on my site.

I got home and got online.. she sent me the pictures and I was flooded with memories of a GREAT time.

Tomorrow – starts a regular day.. rawr. But with her by my side.. “I think i’m gunna be alright” *sings a song*

LAST THING: I know I should be in the shower but *doesnt want to forget it* I saw a Cali plate comin home and it had like XXX heart XXX and I was all.. THATS FOR ME AND SABRINA! JAD SNK Yay! It would be perfet. Ok I’m done.. Shower time!

Saturday – September 27th 2003

NOTE TO ALL*we will be driving back down to PHX not flying so we must start our departure back down today asap*

We woke up at 4am and drove back to San Francisco.

11:30 – Arrive in San Francisco and meet up with my baby *after a little confusion*

I wanted to talk to her and her ONLY. But our parents were around us the whole time, so we really didn’t get a lot of alone time. Not bad tho.. I got to see her again.. hold her hands… and look into her eyes. I love her so much.

Then we went and hid from our parents while they went into the giftshop. Yeah… her mom called like 5 minutes later, called us out.. and my dad was all, well were gunna get going so lets take the pictures.

I wanted to hug her- but I didn’t want her mom to hate me… so we just kinda stood next to each other and took the picture.

Our parents were pretty cool and was like “we’ll let you say goodbye and come when you’re both done”

GOSH I just wanted to stand there forever with her. I took her hands and hugged her. I WAS SO reluctant to say goodbye, but I did. She gave me two rings! I could have cried.. I felt tears. Awwww it was sad. I kissed her again on the lips.. *no it wasnt only 3 times.. I swear I got more than 3 – lol.. I wasn’t couting.. but it WAS more than 3 mmk?*

NOTE : she still owes me her tounge

She walked off and I didn’t want to leave… I wanted to stay with her 🙁

So I got in the car and we started to drive back. Every time I missed her I would clutch the two rings she gave me *that hang on my chain* Ones a turtle, the others a star one. When I touch it – its like I’m touching a part of her- very distant – but still. And everytime I look in the mirror I see my chain and I think of her – and boom.. a big smile explodes on my face.

8:40 – we stop a few minutes outside of LA, to sleep.

9:30 – 1:00 – I talk my baby to sleep trying to tell her and explain to her how much she means to me.

Friday – September 26th 2003

This day we woke up at like 5am and drove to the big redwoods in extreem northern Cali, it was fun. Not like the 25th but hey – I was with my parents.

So we saw the redwoods – took 5 hours to get there.. then we took a few roads that took us thru like 2 or more hours worth of it. We saw the trees.. and spent most of the day exploring it. After that we checked into our hotel in Eureka. *45 minutes north of all the trees* but we were informed it was in the HEART of the tree place. Liars. Drove to some placed and looked at wood carvings.. I talked to my baby.. and my parents asked me if Sabrina wanted to come the next day and meet us at the Golden Gate Bridge?

I was like “mmkay I’ll ask.” and was like YAY! inside. So that night I spent sitting on the balcony talking to Sabrina until my phone almost died. Then I came inside and whispered to her *talking* so I wouldn’t wake up my parents, and then went to bed.

I’ve discovered my soul mate.

Like to know who?

Sabrina Noelle Kwong.

I will love her Always and forever.

WHILE I WAS GONE!

4 days – I know you noticed.

I’m making note of these things for my own reasons.

I woke up at 2:43am on Thursday morning, and got ready to leave.

4:00 – We went to find a place to eat, no place was open.. but we spotted Jack ina Box, and got some breakfast.

4:15 – Park the car – get driven to the airport.

4:30 – Airport arrival – we check in and go to the terminal we were supposed to report to

5:25 – Board plane

5:40 – Flight 573 to San Francisco takes off with one stop along the way

6:45 – Land in Ontario California

7:20 – Flight 573 resumes its flight to San Francisco

8:07 – Arrive at Oakland International Airport, after getting off the plane – finding the baggage and leaving to pick up the car

9:00 – Arrive at the car rental place.. after finding out they dont have our car ready, we find out they are going to downsize us and put us in something smaller, yet charge us the same – IF they can find a car.

9:30 – Ford Windstar Arrives- we were supposed to have an SUV.

10:15 – Arrive at the hotel, and check in early

10:30 – Go to McDonalds to eat – but knowing that we dont want breakfast, we leave to downtown San Francisco

10:45 – Arrive downtown and pay to park

11:00 – 12:50 – Walk the downtown streets of San Francisco… like China Town!

1:00 – Check out from the parking garage and drive around

1:30 – My parents at this time wanted to drop me off but I did not want to have to wait for an hour to meet up with Sabrina, so we drove in a circle, twice. Two different ways each time.

2:33 – Arrive at the mall, but I look around and she isn’t anywhere to be seen – so I head off to the bathroom to fix my hair so I can hopefully look good when she shows up.

2:35 – In the mall I look around Build-a-Bear, feel flush – and know its Sabrina. I walked up to her and her mother. Her mother was standing there, and I was in Awe over how beautiful Sabrina was in person. Her mom said “hello nice to meet you” and I was all… “uhh” My brain had died for that moment.. I was in awe – in shock over Sabrina. I felt like nothing compared to her, with all her beauty and grace, how did I deserve her?

3:00 – After about 30 minutes of wondering what to do, we start to get comfy with each other. Before we left the mall – I gave her the puppy, and she liked it. Then we went to go to other stores, she took me into an old navy story, and I pulled her aside.

I had her look at me… and I said “I always wanted to tell you this face to face… I love you” .. to her reply of – “I love you too”

Woah – Talk about heart melting. Wooooo She is great… N E Ways.. heh.. we were all good and stuff until I kinda took her hand and then we held hands the whole time. I LOVED IT. We held hands everywhere, and I felt like the luckiest guy on earth. I have felt like that EVER SINCE. Sure – some people stared – but I think they were jealous that they didn’t have what I had. I dunno.. kinda like.. how many ugly guys get a babe? Then how many get someone like her? Nobody, cept I can count me…and… thats it. It doesnt happen often – and when it does people stare.

So we went back to the mall, and after walking around the mall for a while we went to go sit. At that time, I gave her my ring, and took her hairtie. She gave me a necklace and a letter *which had some pictures of her inside*

So then what? It just can’t get any better … right?

at like.. I dunno 6? she took me to some gaming place, and we looked around for a while. (holding hands of course)

*sorry about the lack of times.. – I kept watching the time waiting for my time with her to come up – and when it did, I didn’t want the time to end so I didn’t really look at my watch at all, cept within the first 30 minutes of meeting her*

We went to go sit down *my feet were killing me* and I sat next to her on the bench. I wanted to be the first person to hold her, but I found out that someone else already has.. so that kinda made me sad. We got to sit and talk and it was great, thats probably the best time of my life (so far).. right there, in those moments… caught in time with her. We cuddled, and it was great.

We went back to the mall, to get her something to eat. She bought something to eat at Panda Express and we walked around other stores for a while. I WANTED To pay for it all, for EVERYTHING she touched, but I couldn’t. Every place we went to only took cash – you know, the one thing I don’t carry around… 🙁 so yeah.

After a while, we went back to that place that we cuddled at, you see – We had it planned from the start that we would take a picture of us kissing, but I told her that I didn’t want to rush the kiss.. and that I wanted it to mean something. SO if it meant rushing it for the picture – I didn’t want to. She got what I was talking bout.. and agreed. Then I had her lay over next to me… so we could get closer *shes SO beautiful* and I just gazed into her eyes, it was perfect – she is perfect. I feel like a little boy excited over his first girlfriend when I think of her. I’m a dork I know it- but I’m in love.

So I was really nervous but I finally got up a good way (in my head at least) to kiss her. First few times failed becuase of the phone ringing. I asked her if she knew how many girls I’ve ever kissed? She didn’t so I told her.

I leaned over and kissed her on the lips, replying “two”.

I must be living in a dream – but she keeps telling me im not.

Then her mom came and picked us up.. and brought me back to my hotel.

10:25 – After watching her mom go a few wrong ways *and me not correcting her becuase I wanted to spend more time with Sabrina – she found the hotel* I was nervous around her mom *wanting her to like me* so on the way home I didn’t hold Sabrina’s hand. Then it struck me – I wont see her for another year, and I grabber her hand and held on the rest of the way.

10:35 – I was dropped off and I met Sabrina around the car and gave her a great big hug. I asked her “is your mom looking?” she replied.. “no but she knows what were doing” I said.. “Good.” And kissed her one last time on the lips. Oh it was great… and then we waved bye until they couldn’t be seen and I went inside.

Thursday – September 25th 2003 changed my life forever. I love you Sabrina.