Hey,

I’m going to vent, about my job.

My credits most likely will not transfer, and will not be able to be used for any major.. unless I go into the airline industry.

That (being that I was told the credits were … elective… normal college credits) was one of the main points of this job that really made me say ‘I can take lower pay’

I just feel irritated. I knew about it a while ago, at least a week I’ve known. I have been sitting back thinking of what to do- I don’t want to quit and look for another job.. so I guess I am keeping this one for the time being.

The benefits, that were really painted very nicely, were not as nice. (such as hotels, cars etc)

Brandy.. if you want to go to Reed’s wedding, I can give you a pass to travel from Phoenix to Portland round trip for about 70 bucks. Maybe less… so let me know. It would be a stand by flight.. so if for some reason the flight filled up at the last minute, you would have to wait for the next flight that had an open seat. Let me know if you want to do that… Considering how little I talk to you.. I figure I’ll get a quicker reply this way.

And if I know you.. and you need to travel anywhere soon, let me know because I can give the same deal to you.

I am going to travel this weekend, but I am not sure where I am going to go. I am beginning to think the flying benefits are not worth keeping this job. Why? Because for the first 120 days you can’t miss any work for any reason (3 times and you are gone..) so you get 2 days off to fly. Pretty much it shapes up to me not being able to fly somewhere that takes 5 or 6 hours by plane to get to…. because it would take all day to get to, then I would have to get a hotel/car and that adds up when you took a lower pay to do this in the first place.

Rawr.

R. Kelly – Trapped in the Closet — this song has been stuck in my head for over 2 days.

Oh, and my hours suck. I might get an overnight shift, and my off days will be (most likely) Wednesday – Thursday (or in other words, my off days will be weekdays)…

And internet explorer almost just died on me.

I don’t feel like going to church lately. At all…………

that reminds me of a conversation I had today with some ladies at work.

“What do you look for in a girl?” – Well.. uh, someone who is strong in their faith. “Oh, so not your faith, but any?” No, obviously the same stuff I believe in. “Oh so you like the religious type” Well not so much, someone who seeks after the heart of God. (then I wasn’t sure if this came off preachy…) “Oh– someone who goes to church every sunday?” Nah, more like someone who follows what Jesus said (they sit with a blank look)… what the bible says. And they nodded.

Then they stopped asking me questions because of things going on in the class. I heard those two talk later about how they had friends before who were “very religious” like myself and would answer the same way.

I just don’t like the term “religious”… it irks me. It holds all the meaning that I like to get away from.

Jesus breaks religion.

Ernst Kasemann notes that, “Jesus broke through the piety and theology of his contemporaries, and brought God’s promise and love in place of the Mosaic law, his own endowment with the Spirit in place of the Jewish tradition, clarity about God’s will in place of casuistry, and grace in place of good works.”

I guess it’s hard to explain. Not sure if I can explain it… because even by saying “its a relationship” the term is religion.

Bleh…

I’m done. I fear I might be thinking too much for my own good….

“The only time anyone’s admitted they were a Christian before was when they were busy telling me why they’re better than me.” Randy K. Milholland

just Pray