Hey

So I told you that I would update you from Saturday to current. That is almost another week that has gone by, soo.. no pictures this post. Maybe if I can dig any more up I will post them on another post.

On Saturday I unpacked the U-Haul with my dad, after we both kinda blew up at each other (mostly due to the stresses caused by moving) and then later on in the day (with a sick-to-my-stomach feeling like What did I just do by moving back) I went to go surprise Brandy.

ALSO, everyone has been asking.. why did you move back? I haven’t read it on any posts.. etc etc.

Well kids, to be honest it was for my home church. Might be a weak reason, but alas it is the reason as to why my family and I have moved back. Not for school or work. We spent the better part of a year or so up in the Northwest looking for a church and.. it was starting to effect my parents and also my walk. It started effecting me more after I wasn’t in school this semester (as it got worse without having that influence in my life constantly). Thats when I kinda started to want to move back. I didn’t mention any of this publicly because I wanted to surprise Brandy upon my return.

I did indeed surprise her. I felt no need to tell any of my ‘other’ Arizona friends. Mainly being because most of you either don’t talk to me a lot or hang out with me even less. I had friends who I know I won’t see, getting upset because I didn’t tell them. What did you want? I mean.. you would probably talk to me more if you thought I was in another state— the ironic part of that is that statement has held true so far, as much as it may seem like an angry comment. I realize things and people for the way they are. I don’t try to make things any more or less.

Anyway, that nagging feeling of “what did I do” (by moving back to AZ) has started to wear off by the end of this week. I realize where I am at at this point in my life.. and by no means am I content but — rather I am ready for the next segment whatever that may be. I want to pay off some loans to clear my debt. If it is possible I wish to continue with school part time during all of this. If it is not possible, then that’s fine too. I am not worried much about it. I have been told time and time again, you are young. I am twenty three. I feel old (as I am in many of my friends eyes who remain in Oregon, and some in Arizona). Yet I have friends who are older than me telling me I am young. I am rambling. I want my finances to be in order before I go any further. I checked today and I have over 22,000 worth of student loans to pay off.

I am the type of person who knows when he owes someone. Due to this, I don’t feel right about using any more finances while this current amount of debt continues to rise. On one of the interest of the loans– over 1000 dollars has accumulated in interest in a little over a year and 1/2. Yes, you don’t have to be a mathematician to know that my interest rates are bad. I want to consolidate all of them, but then all of these changes will hinge on me getting a job.

Bleh, so what about this week? I have been looking for a job. I’ve applied at a few different places.. something like 10 or 20 places. We shall see in the rest of the week and next week what comes of it.

I have some job thing with Liberty Mutual I am going to go to on Saturday. It seems like a good job but I want to find out more about it. A few other places seem like a good fit too. Otherwise.. I don’t know.

Been a fairly good week, but rather warm. Like summer time warm.. (as if I lived in Portland still). Don’t believe me? My friends in Portland can make fun of me for this.. it was 87 degrees yesterday and will be in the 90’s by the weekend with no relief in sight.

Speaking of the weekend, to kick of the weekend I am going to see the Number 23 tomorrow with Tina. Not sure how good of a movie it is. I have read some pretty good and yet some pretty poor reviews of the movie.

Oh. I washed my car this week. We had to wash it twice due to all of the salt and junk that was caked on our cars after our trip. It was so much fun (except not).

And other than that.. I think I’ve said more than I’ve said in a long time.

I feel like I have more to say, but I can’t find any words. So this will have to suffice for now. Come to think of it, I’m not so sure you all can handle this type of a post anymore… on that thought *clicks submit*

“He who praises you for what you lack wishes to take from you what you have.” Don Juan Manuel

just Pray.

Ciao

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