Hey

I asked Erika out.

I’m being told to ask Stacie out, but I want to date Erika.

I’m crazy? Possible.

Thats who I am.

At least I am going after it right? I could take what is easiest, but I don’t work that way. I can see so many ways, that we could complament each other, and really.. be significant for each other. If she lets.. it happen.

She held hands with her Ex last weekend. Ugh that was hard to hear. She went to the movies with him and bowling. Maybe I am chasing something I shouldn’t be. She even lied to me. Why would anyone still pursue it?

A feeling I have inside.

Thats all I can say.

Its pretty sad when I watch movies to feel some real emotion.

Thats all for now. I’m still waiting for a reply if she will date me or not. I hope she does. I doubt it though. She said she doesn’t want to make people mad.. so no. I told her that if she just doesn’t want to date me.. I can take the rejection – but just to be honest about it. If she is only worried about others feelings.. I’ll take the heat for it all.

Jason