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This week was alright… I didn’t start reading that book.. but I think I may have a time for it.

When? 2|42, I’m sure I’ll get plenty of time. *tells himself to stay positive*

So.. I feel like talking.

Anyway.. I made the September 11th website for the site.. and I was doing research on what they are going to do with Ground Zero.. well to say the least.. the building wont be finished for another 10 years or so.. but you gotta like the plans. They are.. how do you say… Awesome. See it at www.renewnyc.com its good stuff. You can also go to www.lowermanhattan.info see stuff as well.. like you know the subway passage that was destroyed and all that stuff, shows before, after & the plans. Cool stuff.

So.. I’ve been doing some thinking as of lately.. and I think that if my brother doesn’t get much time in Jail.. (he isn’t yet sentenced.. its gunna happen in like another month).. but if he doesn’t get major time in Jail (anything more than like a year and 1/2) then I’m seriously considering to re-plan things and move to Oregon. Why? It would be a great opportunity for him to start over. He wouldn’t have any of the friends he has now.. he would be around the family.. and I don’t see any bad coming of it.

Toldja I’ve been thinking.

I’ve been tempted this week to say something to Emily.. like Hi or something.. but I think it’s because I’ve been trying so hard to forget about the bad things. Like I can’t remember 70% of the stuff that went on with my brother.. and why I had such harsh feelings for him. As it is with Emily.. I’m forgetting stuff daily. I don’t wanna do it too much.. but I almost feel like I can’t control it. In many ways it is like I am moving on now.. on to a new section of my life. I must say that after all this time without her in my life.. I don’t miss her. I really thought I would… I really did.. but feelings had changed for the worse as everyone is aware. I have nothing against her anymore.. I wish her well, and I really hope she someday truly finds God and not at a convenient point of time. I have thought many times how I would react if I ran into her or something.. but I can’t say I know how I would react. I’m sure it would be an experience… and probably not something I’d say I’m ready for right now.

I suppose I haven’t said anything about the big Sept 2nd date I had to go to court for my brother. I went.. I didn’t wanna get up but I went. Bright and early too. I must admit it wasn’t that bad after a little bit. I felt for some people in the court room… and I was in amazement when I saw someone I knew from school at court. She didn’t get time.. but *shakes head*… crazy. Life is a trip. I mean that in so many different ways. Anyway.. my brother saw my mother and I and apparently got all choked up. I’m not sure.. he made like he was tho. My mom can’t stand seeing him in the black and white and handcuffs. I figure he is the one who got himself into it.. so I really don’t feel that badly. And besides.. we’ve seen him in it before. Anyway on with the story that was short lived. We went into the wrong court room haha.. so then after an hour.. we switched. But my brother had still not been seen.. and yeah.. it was like 10:30 when I told my mom that it would be best if she just took me home so I could get ready for work.. take a shower and stuff too. We got back to the house at like 11:00.. then she left to go back. She stayed until like 12:15, about the time I left for work. I helped my parents write a letter to the judge, then we all signed it. I guess you could say we were begging on behalf of my brother.. so that the judge would not be too harsh. Turns out this was a pre-trial arrangement. I heard a few cases where the credit card fraud was a felony 6, but all of them had a few thousand dollars worth and were like Visa/Master cards. If the judge considers it a felony I wanna get a lawyer, and besides he was using it for food. The other charge? I don’t know where it went.. but its not on his file. It could be a mix up.. or maybe the court just told him that he would have to pay back the fines. It is such a gray area right now because I haven’t talked to my brother in about 2 weeks. He does talk to my parents.. and I get infomation from them.

So tonight we went to Mimi’s cafe tonight.. had really bad service.. spoke to the manager and he gave us our meals free. That was really cool.. walking out of the place full with no tab. It was a blessing. Then we went to the Kmart that is closing down near the AZ mills .. and got some stuff. My dad got some sandals.. I got a pair of replacement sun glasses (my other pair I gave to Emily) and my mom got some things too.

I really like this song (click here) *should either download or play on your mp3 player* I’m only keepin it up on my site for a week or so.. so look and download if you like.

I really like the song. It fits my mood right now…. how do you describe that? Beats me.

Anyway.. I’m going to go. If everyone could pray for my brother….

If anyone has any prayer requests… leave em as comments… or tell me later.

Take care, God Bless

Pray Hard.

Ciao