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It’s kind of a hard life. I like to put it in perspective. Hard? Not compared to so many other people and what they have or are dealing with. I’m sure that other would be doing wonders in what I’ve royally screwed up.
It’s like that old thought: at the end of life God shows you a painting. You say, ‘wow that’s amazing!’ & He says ‘that’s the life I had planned for you.
For me I can only imagine what kind of scribbled on, torn up raggedy picture that’s been painted so far. Sometimes I wonder if it’s even salvageable…
It’s just… Well…. I’m sure having my life would be easy for some others. Maybe not if they were in my exact shoes with exact faults and insecurities. I don’t think I actually have a hard life, I just think life for me- from day to day is a struggle.
The old Israel meaning (struggles with God). Except mine is struggles with life.
That randomly reminds me of a boy meets world episode. ‘Runs with squirrels’. If you don’t know what I’m talking about you should look it up on YouTube.
That’s another thing that I’ve done recently. Started watching the kids show ‘Girl meets world’ on the Disney channel – it’s cute.
I suppose that’s all I have for now.
just Pray
