Resigned to the fact

Hey

This title seems to imply something positive?

Perhaps.  The truth is: I am getting rather discouraged by this non-job finding atmosphere.  It really bothers me beyond belief .

I am starting to resign to the fact that I will be stuck in a shoddy call center type job long term if I am going to get back to working.  Unfortunately even call center jobs don’t seem to be calling me back on applications.

What is a person to do?  I’ve made a marker to gauge where things are so that if I don’t find something by June I am going to start applying more aggressively at the local retailers.  Target,  Walmart,  JCPenny and the likes.  Not anything I want to do..  but at this point I really need work for my own mental health.  I’ve briefly been applying to those type of jobs in the past months (Ross, retail banks etc) but have gotten no feedback.  It is VERY depressing not being able to find work and watching what was a normal bank account sink down into the 0.00 levels.  Thankfully my bank doesn’t have ANY minimums or fees.  (It’s Ally Bank, the best bank I’ve ever had.)  I’m not necessarily giving up on life per-say.  Just giving up on finding a job that I would actually like to have or work at.  Why keep looking for something that simply isn’t there?  I’ve all but given up on the idea and am trying to move forward (mentally) from that point.  I am forcing myself to think this way.  It has been pretty bad though- I’ve never felt so deeply that I am in a rut that I can’t get out or climb out of than I have recently.  All I get is silence when I pray.  It reminds me of a song that is really one of my favorites.  Not always for the happiest of reasons.  That struggle.  That faith.  That pain.  Ugh.

 

Anyway, I didn’t want this post to be a complete downer.  Picking up the tone a little bit I will happily report that we have had some rain as of late.  It was nice.  In fact – yesterday there was a chance of snow (it didn’t snow) but it was cold enough for it.  Just no precipitation was left.

 

Just a photo a took at a stop light  yesterday- I liked the look of the focus on the raindrops instead of the backdrop.

OH!  Last thing.  A video I’ve really liked lately.. it has got my feet moving, my head a bobbin.. haha its something that makes me want to get pumped up.  FF5 and Lecrae.  The song is Cray Button.  I’ve posted the video below.

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rX23_xaWjU]

Otherwise.. that is about it!

Happy (25th if I am counting correctly)  Birthday to Brandy in 2 days!

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