FEAR
Last night at 9 PM Pacific Time (or midnight EST), NF released his Album, “Fear”.
I can relate to this Album. Feeling like you’ve already peaked where you are at? Feeling like you are making the same mistakes you have made over and over again? Lost the map to hope, or maybe thinking that you’ve never really had it at all? Yeah. All that and more put in a neat little bow and wrapped up nicely.
Just look at some of these lyrics:
Made a promise to myself I wouldn’t let the fear back in, but then I did though (Woah)
Told the world that I was sick of runnin’, then went back to runnin’, what a joke (Woah)
Disappointed, yeah, me too, I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not (Oh, oh, oh)
It’s the same song and dance, you’ve all seen it before
Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor
Every decision made isn’t mine anymore
Like a puppet with strings, I just don’t have a choice
What’s the truth? What’s a lie?
Help me God, help me Lord
Face your fears, dry your eyes
Grandma died, what’s the point?
Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy
Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice
And now the video:
And then he followed up that video with this one:
Outside of those two, he has a song that I personally like a lot and strikes a chord with me: ‘Who I Was.’
Two parts of this song – first part sung by MGK:
I hid from God for more than two decades of life
And when I came back to the light, He didn’t ask me if I’m Christian still
Just opened up His arms and embraced me like I’m His Son
Erasin’ all the archetypes of what people like me become
Since I was young, my personality split like serpent’s tongue
But all the poison in my body still ain’t make me numb
And then the NF part:
Need to take a breath and calm down
Try to regulate, don’t know how
Wasn’t taught that in my house
Kids of my own, I step back
Look at those smiles and feel sad
Hope they don’t wind up like Dad
Stuck in this loop like I amMy temper gets the best of me
A part of me that I wish I knew how to get rid of
It’s the issue I have, my M.O
Say I need you and I love you to death
Then turn around and go and treat you like you nothin’ but trash
I know—
….
Sometimes, I Lash out
Need to take a breath and calm down
Try to regulate, don’t know how
Wasn’t taught that in my house
Kids of my own, I step back
Look at those smiles and feel sad
Hope they don’t wind up like Dad
Take a listen if you have a chance, and let me know what you think.
just Pray