Struggles

I wonder sometimes if I am related to my brother.

Don’t get me wrong, he has good qualities. I just sometimes wonder why I have to look hard to find them. I wish it wasn’t that way.

I am blown away that he would lay hands on a woman.

Blown away.

I’ll be honest, when he was living with his wife (Heidi) there were maybe a few times where I kind of did a double take on how he was acting and talking. It made me wonder if something more was lurking nearby. Abuse? Meh, how could he do something as lowly as that? We were brought up better than that.

To me, there was no way it could happen. Then again maybe I wanted more than anything to see something good. Or at least have it be so that I wasn’t looking at anything worse than I had already dealt with. You know?

Drugs, alcohol, stealing, the incident with Alexis…

Enough was enough.

Well it turns out that maybe I was on to something. As much as it bothers me to say so. We found out recently that he has been physically and verbally abusive with his girlfriend. Nothing has been confirmed about anyone else… but we are mainly just putting two and two together.

What’s worse is that the person he is doing this to, the whole time she is more worried about him (even after she gets hit) than herself. To me this is beyond reasoning. We’ve spoken to her about it and suggested for her to get out of the bad situation she is in. Simple enough.

Now it makes more sense as to why she didn’t want to live alone with him.

I can take his hatred for his own family, his disrespect for my parents (which bothers me more than anything), his utter distaste for me, wanting nothing to do with our wedding…. him being the self proclaimed ‘black sheep’ of the family and even all the luggage with everything else in his past. But this – I struggle with.

Sigh. Prayers are needed for both my brother and his girlfriend. I’d even say it couldn’t hurt if you wanted to pray for his wife, Heidi too. To be honest- my whole family could use some prayers.

It has been a fun year hasn’t it? And to think- we’re only half way through!

Ok, new topic.

We went to a new church last weekend. It was a lot smaller than I thought it would be. It’s not really a bad thing, just unexpected.

I kinda feel like a nerd for this next thing. I was at Ralph’s and ran across this:

If you know the TV show Shark Tank…. Well the guy who makes this product was on the show. He didn’t make a deal but obviously he didn’t need to. It appears as though he is doing just fine.

Anyway that’s all I have for this time.

just Pray