Haha, so I was just searching all over my admin page as I had momentarily forgotten how to publish a blog via the website!
I think that is pretty bad and at the same time kind of funny. I suppose now would be a good time to admit that some if not all of my posts are now via my phone. I can do it anytime I like. It is nice. I use to think that I could do it all on my laptop – the portability was great versus a desktop.. now if you compare a smart phone to a laptop.. well you get the drift.
What is new? In a couple of days it will be both Maryia and my dad’s birthday, yeah – they share the same birthday. I think its crazy but what can ya do? I am going to go birthday shopping sometime tomorrow. It will be limited to a very small budget – but hey I’ll do what I can.
I feel like I haven’t been blogging enough as of late…..
Random thought.. as much as I love DC Talk I really have moved my love for them over to Jars of Clay. It took a while – and it took even longer for me to realize that I had grown so attached to Jars. I think DC, kind of like a first love will live on as an “era” group for me. It was one of those groups that was with me in some of my most trying times throughout my teen years. I also hope that some day they come together and give a proper send off.. a fare-well album for those long-standing fans like myself.
Jars on the other hand, has been and will continue to be my favorite.
I kind of want to talk a little about my favorite song. You want to hear? Of course you do. One of my favorite-st songs from Jars of Clay is called Silence. Why? Well, I’ve posted some of the main lyrics below. The song just hits home so deeply. Years later from when I first heard it- it means something different, but just as profound. Here they are.
Won’t you break
Scattered pieces of all I’ve been
Bowing to all I’ve been
Running to
Where are you?
Did you leave me unbreakable?
You leave me frozen?
I’ve never felt so cold
I thought you were silent
And I thought you left me
For the wreckage and the waste
On an empty beach of faith
Was it true?
Cuz I…I got a question
I got a question
Where are you?
Scream
Deeper I wanna scream
I want you to hear me
I want you to find me
Cuz I…I want to believe
But all I pray is wrong
And all I claim is gone
Below I’ve also gone one step further and posted a link to the song via youtube. It isn’t the official video (because I don’t believe there is one for this song) but alas, you can still hear the song.
[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y8iZEeQJUDM]
As a believer I am prone to believe that something is wrong if we aren’t constantly questioning our faith. I suppose that’s because I have always been that way. Let me also say that I do not think that questioning things is bad or wrong. On the contrary.. I think it to be quite healthy. It allows you to grow while asking questions (which one will never have all the answers to) and if you think you do then you might need more help than you think. As a new-born believer there will naturally be different questions than a someone who is a tenured believer, but how can we ever truly know the heart of God if we aren’t asking questions and seeking the truth?
I think that is a great way to end this post.
just Pray.