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I don’t want to wait, by Paula Cole – that song brings back a lot of memories. Of— Dawsons Creek. I never really watched that show until my first girlfriend convinced me to do so.
I would sit on the phone each night with her watching the show. At first I wasn’t too impressed, but after a while I got to know the characters and liked it. In fact.. after we broke up some while later, I continued watching it– off and on until the show ended. I did make a point to watch the last episode.
Pacey, Joey, Dawson – three main characters. Pacey and Dawson were always in a competition for Joey. I always always wanted Pacey and Joey to end up. The final episode, Joey left Dawson— and went to her one.. True love. Pacey. It was a great ending to the show. I loved it so much I recall getting goosebumps, or some call them goosepimples? haha. It ended the way I wanted it to, in my mind.
In the Notebook, the main character leaves a perfect life, for a deep passionate love.
In City of Angels Seth gives up eternity with God for a chance to live with Maggie.
I want the same type of drama to happen in my life. I want the “love of my life” to realize something, and come running to me so we can live our lives, Happily ever after. Don’t try to tell me those stories weren’t with a happy ending, I know they weren’t. In City of Angels, Maggie dies. But you see, he would do it all over again just for 15 seconds with her.
Love.
It is said, a rose cant live without the rain so a heart can’t love without the risk of pain.
But go to another movie I like- “You’ve got Mail” fantastic movie, and it has a happy ending.
So, what does this tell us? Well, nothing really except that I’m a sucker for love stories.
They had a story on Yahoo, about if you are too picky for picking that person. You know, someone you want to spend your life with. I agree that some people are way too picky, only looking for the fairly tale ending. My biggest downfall in being with people– that I tend to settle. Not that it is a bad thing, it only really becomes a bad thing after you start thinking you could do better.
Which typically happens with me.. at least with the last two girls I dated. That is why, for the past 2 going on 3 years I haven’t dated anyone. I know for a fact I could have dated a few girls.. but I’ve held off. I don’t regret it, but in some cases this has caused the friendship to sour, for others it was something that didn’t change things.
It really is hard to find someone who will be there for you, as much as you will be there for them. To find that connection… the one that causes a spark. I’ve found a lot of sparks.. haha well.. I’ve been changing my interaction patterns. Ever since college I’ve been told that I’m a flirt. So, I’ve been working on that. I think I’ve been that way because in Highschool I was one among thousands. At Cascade I was wanted. I liked that feeling…
Why is it a priority in my life to have someone that I can spend my life with? Or better yet, have a girl in my life who I can love for who she is- and she can look past my brokenness and love me for me. It isn’t such a bad thing right?
It is hard to find that– but add to the mix that she needs to be Christian and the chances are less.
I’m tired of not finding anyone, of looking and finding games, of looking and finding people who will lead you on.
Hmm, I wanted to vent all of this for the pure and simple fact that I haven’t blogged anything real in a while.
“The purpose of relationship is not to have another who might complete you, but to have another with whom you might share your completeness.” – Neale Donald Walsch
Other than that.. I’ve gotten nothing for prospects of jobs. I’ll blog more about that- next time.
just Pray
