I saw the time and I scrambled to get internet explorer open and to log into xanga…
That way I could still post (officially that is) for Jan 7th.. I like the number 7.
Soo.. I did it. I logged in and did a private entry until a little later when I gave you the update I am typing now.
Go ahead.. look at the time. It says I posted at 11:59pm.
Fun times.. I’m laying on my bed and my laptop just got disconnected from the charger. That means I have 6 hours remaining until my battery goes dead. I should be able to finish this post in that time haha
I can’t really believe that I haven’t posted since I got back with the car and all that jazz. It seems like so long ago.
This past week sped by, much like the week before it. On top it all I had my birthday this last week.
Lot of people remembered… Minus my brother. Ah well, he hasn’t remembered in 6 years. It may have bothered me the first few times.. but it doesn’t matter to me anymore. It has helped with my view on it all…
Then we have myspace…. I was a little agitated. Myspace gave my birthday out!! But apparently not to everyone… just some people. It is weird.. something I haven’t figured out. My privacy settings are set accordingly to block it from being shown but for some reason it still told a few that it was my birthday. Ah well.
What is my deal with birthdays anyway? I don’t like making a big deal of them. If you remember– that’s great. I appreciate it. I’m just not the type to sit around a week before or a day or (fill in the blank) and speak about my birthday. Not everyone and their sister has to remember. The world doesn’t revolve around me. I don’t consider it a big deal. I like when people remember.. but if for some reason everyone forgot I would understand that side of it too. Then I would just expect my parents to remember.
Anyway.. moving on… what a great segue!
Yes, moving on. I am no longer going to Cascade and I find it funny that some Cascadians still think I am going to return (yes, this after reading my journal). You see.. they just look at the pictures and skim. It is fantastic. So that important phone call never came. I called Tom (the choir director and also the leader of Voices) and let him know. I’m going to be going on the Voices trip this Friday (as Tom let me know that he still wants me to go). However, I am not sure if I will be able to attend any of the rehearsals this week. Time will tell.
I am ready to move on from Cascade. I will be much more happy this way too. And yet another bonus is the checkbook. (I don’t have one) but.. metaphorically… it will be easier on the finances.
Yet, I almost feel bad.
I have this idea in my head.. of spilling what I dislike.. all the cancer that has grown inside me since going to that campus. My fingers are itching at the bit to take this moment and sing.. to reveal my view of things and how things really were for me.
But no, I won’t do that. I really sometimes hate knowing better…..
The other big news that I talked about in the other post, the other big news… well…
Bombs away.
I am going to move back to Arizona this year. The exact date is still up in the air.. but now you know.
Don’t worry Brandy.. as we have talked about, I still plan on going with you in May. Speaking of that.. it feels like I haven’t talked to anyone outside my family in a long time. It is a sobering feeling.
Been listening to a lot of random music. From Elton John’s Philadelphia Freedom, to John Cougar’s Jack and Diane.. to Busta Rhymes Fire it up Knight Rider remix… to this.
Really like that song. It’s old.. it’s outdated… but I really really like it.
I’ve also downloaded some 20 or 30 episodes of Boy Meets World. 
You know, the more I think about the people that I’ve almost dated here… the more I am glad and at peace that nothing will happen. I feel relieved that I won’t be going down those roads.
I think this past year I have really re-defined what is worth fighting for.
Ending on a lighter note…
Today I went to Wal-Mart with my parents. Mom had to pick up some stuff and a trash can (ours isn’t broke.. just missing these two unique pins). My dad and I went to the trash can aisle to look. I saw the exact one that we had. My dad saw a pin lying on the floor so he took it. Then we thought.. hmm 1 more and we don’t need to buy one. We couldn’t find one so I took one off the trash can.. but as soon as I did that my dad found another one on the floor hahaha. Anyway.. it was funny. We then left and kinda watched our backs hahahahahahhaaha
I can see it on the news: Two People Arrested at Local Wal-Mart for taking two trashcan pins. Suspects were apprehended as they left the building.
The good news is that we won’t go to hell for it.
Okay okay.. so the biggest thing tonight…. I’ve also finished this post!
“There is absolutely no inevitability as long as there is a willingness to contemplate what is happening.” – Marshall Luhan
“Age is not a particularly interesting subject. Anyone can get old. All you have to do is live long enough” – Groucho Marx
Pray Hard
Ciao
