Hey,
Fun week, if you want to call it that.
I got overloaded with more class work… and am now preparing for exams. Due to the court date I had, I now have a 10 page paper to do for one of my other classes. Talk about getting a good deal… everyone else got to go on a field trip to look at waterfalls. I get a 10 page paper. Woohoo.
So here are some quotes that I found– mostly dealing with friendship, but it makes a great segue into the next topic.
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“If only you could see the you that is a part of me, maybe you could see inside yourself.”
“Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they are meant to be there; they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are.” -Lindsay Russo
“When you have no light to guide you and no one to walk beside you, I will come to you. When the night is dark and stormy, you won’t have to reach out for me, I will come to you.” -Taylor Hanson
“The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with friendship.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson
“Love is Just Like Life. Its not always easy and it does not always bring happiness…. but when we do not drop living, Why should we Drop Loving!” -Hammad Chhipa
“If you are going to jump off a mountain, I won’t be beside you. I’ll be below going to catch you.”
“The best way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost”
Piglet sidled up behind Pooh. “Pooh,” he whispered. “Yes, Piglet?” “Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw. “I just wanted to be sure of you.” – Winnie-the-Pooh
“Do you love me because I’m beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?”
“Good friends come and good friends go, but only the best friends stick around forever.” -by Jenelle Stricker
“Love is friendship on fire.”
“Friends are friends forever, if the Lord is the Lord of them And a friend will not say never, cause the welcome will not end Though it’s hard to let you go In the Father’s hands I know That a lifetime’s not too long… to live as friends.” -Michael W. Smith
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Friends. I talked about them in my other post, about how I missed friends. I more-less felt heart sick that I wasn’t hanging out with some particular person.. namely Billie Jo.
So, I don’t know. Well.. I do. I made an appointment with her. Haha that sounds funny.. but that is what happened. Wednesday afternoon after Voices. We indeed met up, I almost started to dread it. Like.. my stomach got in knots from the start of the day. When we did meet up.. I really didn’t know what to do, I could constantly feel my heartbeat pulsing my chest.
Why? I got the impression from talking to her previously that she really didn’t have a desire to be friends… and just to leave it alone. I pressed for answers and that is when she said we should meet up.
I drove to a park, Laurelhurst for those of you in Portland. I put it into park and we sat in the car for the next long while. It was too chilly to walk around.. so we sat inside. She told me about how she had changed in the summer. Nothing really to do much with me at first. Then she talked about last year… us liking each other, and that jazz how she didn’t want it to happen again. ‘Nothing will ever come of us.’
Ah, well that made sense. I admitted to her that last year I didn’t make the wisest choices.
Anywho, so she asked me what I felt. I let her know that I would desire to have her as a friend more than anyone else at school. I dunno, I really value this friendship… I place a high importance on it. It was very surprising to me that I found myself nervous… feeling out of place. With not enough moisture in my mouth to feel like I could say anything.
She told me that she had pretty much moved on… but had fond memories of the way things use to be, and still had no problem in being friends.
You wanna know what I was feeling? I started to tear up (those that know me, should go wow). I was SO close to breaking down.
I also let her know that I indeed like her, and a year ago did not think that I was coming back to Cascade. I told her ‘If I had the chance to date you now, I would’
And it is worth noting, the last time I felt this strongly towards someone, it was my ex whom I was in love with.
That also.. I assume will surprise a lot of you.
So before I drag this out any longer than necessary… we said that we would try harder to keep a friendship.
I have certain friends that ask me ‘is that ok? are you ok?’ seriously.. If I could attain the friend status that I was previously.. even in the beginning of this school year a short 6 weeks ago… I would be happy.
Time will tell.
I am usually secretive on whom I like… but what the heck. I have nothing to hide.
Random quote.. From The Postal Service: Nothing Better
“Would someone please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart”
More updates should becoming soon..
“Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.”- Psalm 51:12
Pray Hard, Seek Harder
Ciao