Hey

Ever feel like a white-washed tomb?

I have- heck.. I do. If you have no clue what I’m talking about read the bible. If you aren’t a believer then what I am talking about is below

Matthew 23:25-29

“Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence. Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.

“Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men’s bones and everything unclean. In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.”

Ugh. Sometimes I read that.. and I think… man, Jesus- those words are harsh. That hurts. When isn’t stuff like that stuff that Christians deal with? I deal with it.. and I’m a Christian.. so I assume others deal with it too. I could be wrong and be the only one who deals with that- and I’m ok with that. Jesus accepts me as I am.. who I am.

Hold my arm – strap the rubber band around it, inject the needle and give me my dose that I have everyday.

Blah. I want not. Song of the moment – click here.

I want a heart that Jesus would have so much, and I fail so miserably so often that I get very discouraged.

*sigh* “you spread out your arms, over empty hearts, said let there be light”

Sometimes it leaves me speechless. Sometimes it leaves me wondering why I pray the same prayer night after night. When I pray shouldn’t I expect changes? Yes. When I pray I should pray of anticipation with an answer. Why don’t I? Sometimes my own failures.. time after time makes me think I shouldn’t send it up in prayer another night. Yet I know I should.

“and you capture my heart with this love, because nothing on earth is as beautiful as you”

A few days ago my dad was at work and went to move a bench .. I think it was a bench.. anyway it was heavy. He did something to his back, so he has been out of work this week so far (anyone who knows my dad, for him to miss even a day of work is serious) so now he had x-rays. The x-rays did not come back saying that nothing was wrong. It came back as abnormal. So on Thursday he is going in for an MRI on his back. Pray for him.

That’s all I have to say right now.

“How majestic your whispers… what a wonderful God.”

“You, then, why do you judge your brother? Or why do you look down on your brother? For we will all stand before God’s judgment seat. It is written: ‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord, ‘every knee will bow before me; every tongue will confess to God.’ So then, each of us will give account of himself to God. Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother’s way.” Romans 14:10-13

Pray Hard

Ciao