Today was one crazy day.
What a way to start off a post… you think?
hopefully it will get my readers.. hanging on my every word – mm maybe not.
Where to start? I woke up and it was starting to sprinkle/rain. It was good, and then up until 1pm-ish it was raining. It was nice.. a good start to the day.
Other stuff happened today too. None of which I really want to talk about – but I did find out about my scholarship!
I called the church office because when I tried to email Perry it kept telling me he would be out of the office until the 16th. So I finally got ahold of someone and they had the information.
Instead of getting the 12,000 I needed, I got $500.
I… am happy that I got five hundred. I have been pacing back and forth with my thoughts on this matter, and … well.. at first I was very much surprised. I kinda felt like I got hit in the stomach or something – I really couldn’t believe it… and then I had an overwhelming feeling of going insane – like how did I fail? what didn’t I do right? What could I have said or done… just.. .why?! Feeling this way over how much I would have to fund now that I knew the outcome. I know I don’t set myself up for falls very often but … I hate that I did, but its true. I told myself I wasn’t going to get anything, but I really expected them to take me with open arms and tell me otherwise. It didn’t quite happen that way, and this is the way it is supposed to work out. For whatever reason even tho it doesn’t make any sense to me.. I will embrace it and make the best of it.
I am finally at the point where … as much as it was a letdown (and no – I don’t like to admit that it was in fact a letdown) I realize it was also a good thing. I will have it all on my own shoulders… I wont be able to give anyone else any bit of what I’m feeling.. and I can handle that.. I have before.
So now I am scrambling to get aid as quickly as possible. I’ll be fine, I can do this.. and when it is all said and done.. I will be a better man because of it.
Then when my brother came home, he announced he had lost his phone. So it was a pretty good day, well…. minus the day and everything in it.. but add the rain, and it was indeed a good day.
So I figure Central with 5 to 7 thousand people attending.. isn’t that big. Don’t believe me? Check this out. I want to attend some day, instead of 5 to 7, fifty seven thousand.. That would be cool and would make for one heck of a worship serivce..
As I leave the east valley, I see I am leaving it in good hands. No.. not Allstate either. I mean this. Kinda cool huh? I saw it when I was going to play basketball earlier last week.
It is now past 12:00 AZ time so it is officially her birthday!
Happy Birthday Katie Archambault (tell her)
“My back is filled with searing pain; there is no health in my body. I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart. All my longings lie open before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you. My heart throbs; my strength fails me, even the light has gone from my eyes. My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds; my neighbors stay far away. Those who seek my life set their traps; those who would harm me talk of my ruin; all day long they plot deception. I am like a deaf man, who cannot hear; like a mute who cannot open his mouth; I have become like a man who does not hear, whose mouth can offer no reply.
I wait for you, O Lord; you will answer, O Lord my God. For I said, “Do not let them gloat or exalt themselves over me when my foot slips” For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me. I confess my iniquity; I am troubled by my sin. Many are those who are my vigorous enemies; those who hate me without reason are numerous. Those who repay my good with evil slander me when I pursue what is good.
O Lord do not forsake me; be not far from me, O my God. Come quickly to help me, O Lord, my Savior!” – Psalm 38:7-22 (NIV)
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Pray Hard, God Bless
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