hey,
Cha bang!… here is my weekend post, with a summary and all.
So less and less people are even reading this journal anymore. I suppose its nobodys loss.
Anyway.. today we went to see Shrek 2, it was good. Puss N Boots.. he rocks… But I still like the donkey the best.
On Saturday… I went to church. I sat down and three or so people that I knew sat by me.. then I saw someone sitting by themself… so I went and ventured out into the unknown (I sat next to them) haha.. anyway.. after 2|42.. I went with everyone to In – N – Out. It was good. First time in a few weeks I didn’t go to the extreme bean on Saturday.. so that was something new. Everyone I knew left at around 9pm.. so I left too. I didn’t really have anywhere to go.. and my mood was dampened by the fact that I hadn’t seen Tara at church.. 2|42.. or anything afterwards when she said she’d be coming. So I went home… ate (in N out of all places) and watched a movie I’ve seen before.. (Down to Earth w/Chris Rock). After that was over.. I called Tara (my lifeline for the night) to see how she was.. what was up.. and if she wanted to do anything (probably 11:30ish still really early) and so I talked to her. She didn’t come because she was tired. She had to go because she was with a friend. Ooouch, there goes my chances of doing anything being shot right out the window. Oh well.. so I just kinda stayed up doing nothing until maybe 1:30 and went to bed.
Ah well. So today I woke up (best way to start a day) at 10:30? – my parents brought Willie in and they went to go visit Michael. I fell back asleep and woke up at 11:30 and 12:30 before I got up. I got up after having ample sleep.. and I felt tired.. and… out of it. I felt like I hadn’t used my bones in a week. It was different… for sure. I got on the computer after a little bit.. but nobody was on. I felt… really…. sad? today…. it wasn’t really good. I think I’m lonley… but don’t tell anybody. I lack friendships now more than anything. Kinda sad just thinking about that .. haha. I don’t know.. it really hit me yesterday after I left 2|42 and I realized I had nobody to call. I mean.. I called JJ on Thursday because I wanted to do something. He shrugged it off with the fact that he was going to go do some yard work (at 10:30 at night.. yeah I dont know.. but don’t ask). So.. then.. I don’t know. I just feel alone. Look look.. last few incoming calls (opens up phone).. 3 calls since August 18th have been incoming. Figure that stat out.. hah. Don’t mind me.. I’m just belly achin.. I don’t know what I’m sayin right out.. cept for whats on my mind. I don’t have much use for a phone. I call my mom on my breaks and lunch. I think I might talk to her the most from the people in my phone book. Cept that long rare conversation with Kat (Hanna)… otherwise.. yah.
I haven’t talked to her much lately either…
Nah most of this week I’ve been trying to get away from the feeling. Sitting at home does not help.. so I have been drving near and far all throughout the week…
For the Record.. No.. I don’t feel like I need a hug.
So they’re going to start the new bible study this week. I’m supposed to call them and let them know who I am.. becuase nobody knows me. I was gunna say “hey this is the person thats been going for a while and still hardly anybody knows me, you know.. I’m the person nobody knew… think hard….. yeah .. now you got it.. the nameless… thats me.” But I was told not to.. I dont think it would make a Great first impression.. but i’m kinda fusturated with them. Startin this week too.. infact.. This Friday… hah. Wonderful timing.. so much so that I actually am going to hear someone speak this Friday/Saturday at Central.. so I’m not gunna be able to make it to the first meeting.
Thats all I’ve got.
Take care, God Bless
Pray Hard.
Ciao