hey everyone
Life has been life. Its been up and down, a little over here, and way over there.
Yesterday I had some fun. I called up JJ and played some ball with him. Then I had him drive my car around for a while to get some practice.
Then today I asked him if he was ready for the driving test. He was.. and guess what – he passed! I knew he would. I’m so proud of him.
Next line of business, after the bowling game on Saturday I ripped off a sticker on Emily’s car, and she was like “you better clean it up” so I was like “fine – heck I don’t care as long as there isn’t an asu sticker.” So today I got to go through her car, clean it out, and detail it. Yeah.. the deal was to just clean that stupid sticker mark (which came off easily) but I’m a perfectionist, and I saw.. dirt.. and a dirty car. So because JJ crashed at my house, we both cleaned out her car. I just did the perfectionist bit of it. No little spots, no streaks.. etc. It bugs the heck out of me. You should see my car. I keep it clean.
This past week I got my CD player fixed in my car, so now it doesn’t skip over bumps or anything! The only thing I need to learn to do – is to be stronger in my belief. You see.. when I’m driving around with JJ, I take out the Christian music I listen to all the time ( I try not to listen to the cynical music ) and by the end of the day.. I was listening to some… questionable songs. Linkin Park is okay.. but… yeah. I am really actually trying to clear out all the bad, and just insert the Good into my life. Anyone out there in my position knows thats hard to do, when the world itself is engulfed with cynical music. And how we seem to idolize these teens, these singers. They – I’m stoping. I could go on.. but Its besides the point. I just would like to listen to Christan music in my own car, but I don’t feel right doing it when JJ is in the car because I know he doesn’t believe what I do. I mean… on one hand I would love for him to become a Christian, but on the other hand, I don’t want to press anything on him. I don’t want to have my music be a reason that he doesn’t talk to me. But I guess if he doesn’t hang out or talk to me because of the music I listen to thats on him right? Yeah but I lose the friend – So I’m in a pickle.
Tomorrow I go to work, oh so fun Fridays. My resolve rates this past month were right around 20 percent, and that was pretty good considering everyone else’s I saw was either 19 or 21 percent. I’m about average on the worst part of the season. So anyway, thats then and this is now.
I have more time to Give thanks when I spend less time online, when I spend less time online listening to music, talking on AIM, or anything. The love that I have for my God is not a love like that between a man and a woman. Its one only you can have with God. And in many ways I feel like I am growing.
Challanges ahead – school. This will be a test for me.. to see how I fair in all the stuff that goes on. If it comes down to it, I’ll just sit in my own part of the class, and let it come to me, I’m not going to press any subject. I mean.. I’m going to learn. Nothing more.
I still have to pick up school supplies tomorrow or on Saturday. Either one. On Sunday I don’t work.. I’m going to a Blazers game. Hopefully they will win, they lost tonight against the Suns in Portland, so hopefully they can get a win in Phoenix.
I’ve played ball these past few days, and I haven’t in a while, it feels good to get out there and play. Once you learn how to play you never forget, but you have to learn to get your shot down again. It hasn’t been THAT long, maybe 2 months before now that I was going out a lot (every other day or so) and playing. Now its more like every few weeks.
Everyone has been giving me greif about updating my xanga, so here you go. A nice long entry for all of your needy little eyes to read.
DSL & Cable Users, listen to this song that I have posted on my site.
SOUND BYTE OF THE WEEK
God Bless
Ciao
*update* due to Emilys post – she misunderstood what I said. School will be a challange, I’m pretty sure I’ll do really well in the classes, thats not what I’m talking about. I’m talking about my faith, and having a re-lapse and losing everything that I’ve gained so far. A re-lapse, like I had when I moved from Portland to AZ and hung out with Jesse, not a challange in its too hard for me. I don’t want to loose sight of the unseen. We are so weak and he is so strong, and with his help I know I’ll be alright. It will still be a test, make no mistake..
