growing

Well I’ve been back from Oregon for a week officially now. My girls are growing up so quickly. I can hardly believe Rosie is 5! I can hardly believe that Sophie has been here for 5… almost 6 months! It’s crazy. I am so excited that I am an auntie of so many. I wish that I was able to see the other kids more often. I wish their parents would send me photos and that I got to hangout with them when I came to visit. I miss the kids most. They are so wonderful to be around. I love hanging out with each of them. And I hate not having enough time to hangout with each and everyone of them. I wish I had a decent job and I could be a better auntie but as for now that’s just not the way the cards have been dealt. Someday I know things will be easier.

My trip in Oregon was busy. I spent a great portion of my time with Angel and the girls. It was really nice being able to spend time with them. I also got to see some of my other nieces and nephews at Rosie’s 5th Birthday. Ahhh I could have hugged them forever. At this stage they are still forgiving.  I got to see Domi again. We hungout for lunch. It’s good to see her so happy and to catch up. I also hung out with Jacquee a little. Wish that she would have had time off but I just missed her spring break so I didn’t get as much time with her as I would have liked. And before I knew it my visit was over.

Before I knew it I was back in the Seattle Airport waiting for my plane to board. Getting through security was tighter than normal but it wasn’t as horrible as people were saying. I waited and then I boarded. When I sat down a nice Doctor was beside me. I didn’t know he was a doctor at first but he seemed very interesting. It may have been my love for the study of the brain and his book about neurons that made him interesting. I was nervous but I asked him about his book anyway. I don’t know why I’ve been so shy lately. My old self would have struck up a conversation immediately with anyone who was next to me. Well once I mustered up the courage to ask about his book I found out we had a bit in common. Some other man came along and the nice Doctor had accidently sat in his seat. The nice man let the good Doctor stay so we could continue to converse. It was a nice flight with a nice conversation.

Jay and I had talked about the possibility of school before I met the nice doctor but my research on the topic had overwhelmed me. I do not have research experience so getting into a clinical program looked next to impossible. It still kind of does. The nice Doctor had suggested that I look into occupational therapy and so I have been. But I’ve also been looking into speech therapy and other avenues as well. I’m not sure I’ll ever go back to school. I’m not sure I’m as cerebral as I once was. But I have been re-teaching myself algebra and vocabulary for fun. I never thought I could like math but I am kind of starting to enjoy it. I always thought I was bad at it. The truth is that I over think it… and I complicated math. It’s not as complicated as I make it. Regardless I’ve made a game out of it and I have been enjoying my “math” time.  I’ve also made it a priority to play fewer regular games on my phone. Many of them I have replaced with math games, vocabulary games, and anatomy games. They are challenging and thrilling in their own ways.  Much to my surprise I like playing with words and numbers.

As for everything else it’s been pretty normal. I need to get back into the swing of things and start my walking routine again. I’d like to do a cleanse and maybe cut down on my sugars and starches but who knows if I’ll actually find the motivation to do it. We’ll see.