I don’t know if this will be my greatest adventure but I know that I am already learning a ton. There is a certain freedom that comes with not being tied down and with that freedom comes a great deal of responsibility! I have to make goals and then achieve them. I cannot let my life settle because afterall… this is just one of the many adventures that I will experiance in my life.
Today I learned from a child the beauty of imagination and simplicity.Today I learned from an adult the beauty of lists and a governed life.Today I learned that planning for the unexpected is a bunch of bull.Today I learned that everyone is still human… eventhough some appear to be superhuman.Today I learned the power of apoligy.Today I learned the love of a friend.Today I learned to let go of what has happened.Today I learned that there will be no other day like this one.Today I learned that nothing is permanant.Today I learned that God is always there.Today I learned that my perspective on important matters has changed drastically over the past five years.Today I learned patience.Today I learned wisdom.Today I learned self-control.Today I learned… I am one of those freaks in our society who loves to learn new things… sometimes it’s rough and sometimes it’s simple. I tend to take the jagged road many times and create lesson plans learned the hard way. But I’ve learned. However, because I have learned so many things the hard way (experianced them first hand) I have gained appreciation for the smallest of things and grown attached to the beauty of life. Last night as my insomnia kept me awake for the tenth day in a row, I placed my hand over my chest and listened to my heart… each unique little beat telling me that my life wasn’t over… each unique little beat working and working and working to let me know that there is still so much for me to experiance. Then I placed my hand over my lungs and felt my chest rise and fall. The bigger the rise… the lower the fall (fancy that 🙂 ). And for an hour I just listened… to the beating of my heart and the rising of my lungs. And like magic my mind began to come up with trillians of metaphores about life and death and purpose and everything one could think of in that small amount of time. The rest of the night I tossed and turned as my mind worked busily showing me my most inner thoughts and preventing my eyes to be covered by their lids and let me drift off into dream land. Tick Tock Tick Tock… the hours felt like minutes until at one point and hours after I had crawled into my comfy little covers I finally caught a glimps of dream land… and then my alarm clock went off.I jumped out of bed, grabbed some coffee (which I don’t usually drink), showered and started the first day of my next adventure…
I know it’s raining right now but I really just have the desire to go hiking! I feel like I’ve beenlocked indoors a little too long now… The last few months I’ve been so busy and I’m not sure where my time has went… I wish that I could say that I want it back… but I know that there would be some really hairy stuff that I would have to re-live and I cannot say that would be worth my lost time. So I’ll take it how it was and look at right now. I still have a lot to do today… 🙂 BUT THE GOOD NEWS IS: I’m almost done and off to my next adventure. I still want to gohiking though… rain or shine. Actually scratch that… I want to go in the rain. I want to bemuddy head to toe and loving it. I want to breathe in the crystal clear air of the outdoors. and for a couple of hours… be FREE 🙂 Free to clunk in the mud and watch the leaves fall from thetrees. I want to shout as loud as I can and listen to the eco and then be as still as possible and listen to the wind, birds andwaters as they all pass by doing their daily duties. I want toescape the city for a short while and then return rejuvinated…fed by the beauty of the simple things.
So my roommie and I sat down sunday night and hashed things out… deposits, etc. And discussed everything like grown women should… rationally and maturaly. We drafted a contract and all is well. The last coupld of days have been crazy! It feels as if it’s been happening for weeks and weeks. Nothing but arguments after what I like to call the “incident”. Most of my belongings are being transported out to my parents house in Colton… the rest will tag along with me to my new residence off of 109th and San Rafel. It’s a pretty nice location and is only a little over half a mile to walk to the Dojang. I still love my martial arts classes… I’m still taking all three types. I’m pretty sure that TKD is my fav at the moment. Anyway I’m glad that I get to keep up with it, eventhough life has been unexpectantly unpredictable. Who was it who said “it is useless to plan for the unexpected.” ? Well they were right you know! It’s been crazy but I’ve been blessed to have really amazing friends who have held me up during all of this. My family has been fantastic as well… dropping just about everything to lend a helping hand eventhough they live so far away. I am most richly blessed! I’m learning a lot… and growing immeasurably. My faith in God is still maturing… I’m pretty sure it will never climax or arrive to its full potential… I still keep trying to understand more than I am capable of… but God is good! I have no doubt in my mind that he is here and always has been and always will be… his grace stuns me daily! The changes I see are good ones 🙂 Well I’m off to another adventure now… Who knows what’s in store!
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