This is the first blog or journal or whatever that I will write for 2010. 2009 ended with a grouping of suicides, cancer, motorcycle accidents, and various other deaths/diagnoses. I pushed through 23 only hoping that I would find 24 to be a year of rest and revival. However, since November life has just gotten…

If there was ever a time to  be a little down it would be now. Four deaths. FOUR deaths in SIX weeks. For the most part I am doing better than I should be but at the same time I am indeed sad. I went Salsa dancing for the first time and found out that…

Breathing. Breathing. Breathing. I can see that I am breathing. I know that I am alive. I breathe in this cold air and my heart is filled. Filled with dispair. I look around to see nothing of my own. I have wandered so far from home. I find myself so alone. I feel around in…