Singing. Breathing. Dancing.

Can you imagine what it would be like to spend an entire evening trying to count the stars? Sounds like heaven right? Well it does to me. Camping. Hiking. Being wrapped in a blanket of stars. It sounds wonderful. Then again I look up at the sky on a clear beautiful evening and find myself in awe. I am nothing more than a grain of sand. It’s comforting for some reason. I’m not the type of person who needs to be set up on a stage by myself in front of the world. I’d rather walk through life improving the lives of those who I come in contact with… silently… secretly. I want to smile behind a closed door knowing that my life was not lived in vain. I don’t want to live for myself. I learn to bear my soul… I learn to love without judgment… I learn to live the life worthy of my calling. I am amazed. I like simple. Simple is beautiful. I will never need a lot of money or fancy things. Instead… I just want to be happy. I’m willing to make the sacrifices to do so. I am willing to give up wealth and pride and status. To Hades with those things any way!
So what do I say to societal norms?
I say that I will wear pretty dresses for no reason. Who needs a reason to feel beautiful?
I say that I will dance…. even if I look ridiculous.
I will sing in the shower even if others are listening.
but more importantly I WILL LIVE! I will laugh and I will cry. I will do everything I can to make sure that my life was full and worthwhile. That’s how life has been for the last 11 months or so and I will continue. So I’m not who some of you think I should be. I’ve already accomplished more than whoever writes the statistics said was possible. I love life. Probably because it isn’t as complicated as it could be. I like simple. With simple I can simply do extraordinary things. Primarily because I ma not tied down to heavy weights holding me back… and even in my work I know that I am molding and shaping and loving other individuals. Once it becomes about me or money I know it’s time to move on. I don’t want to be like that. I’m ready to dive off into the deep spots… to swing across the river on a rope… I’m ready to free fall into the icy cold waters of the pacific northwest. It is here that I wake myself up… it is here that I realize life isn’t about what you can attain in a material manner but rather what you can accomplish in the lives of those around you. This is who I am. I don’t mind that it makes me shiver sometimes… that occasionally I second guess myself. I know that in the end… whatever the end is… I will have lived life to the fullest. It will have been so full that my cup was overflowing. To love people… that is my calling. Noting more. Nothing less.  It’s time for me to find the nearest lake and take the plunge again and again and again.
I’m ready to jump… are you?