My Engagement
When I say my Engagement I am not talking about marriage proposal. To help others better understand the meaning of the type of engagement I am speaking of I have provided a definition below:
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an encounter, conflict, or battle: We have had two very costly engagements with the enemy this week alone.
I find myself experiencing an engagement with certain views and lifestyles of those around me. There is no other way to describe it but…STUPIDITY. I will listen to your view and nod. But PLEASE don’t expect me to agree with you. Pushing your views on me… especially when I don’t like them in the first place is not a good idea. Do I try and shove my Christianity down your throat? NO! No I do not. So please don’t push your psychic, crystal ball, ghost hunting, telepathic, out of body experience lifestyle onto me! I am SO sick of this ridiculous talk. It would be one thing if you could intelligently support some kind philosophy. But instead you state your opinion as if it is fact. You act like there is no other truth but what floats through your synopsis and gets stuck in the wrong cleft. Please at least give me some kind of substantial argument! Don’t just blab away the first thing that comes to mind… my mother did that. It’s weird. It’s annoying. I dislike it more than I can say. My words are not enough.
And criticizing me for not sleeping around… UGH! It’s not who I am. It’s not who I want to be. So it’s been almost a year since I’ve even kissed someone. So I haven’t been in a serious relationship since well let’s not get into that again. Actually you remind me of him more each day…so let’s get into that. Why would I want to be around someone who manipulates me and makes me feel guilty just for being who I am… for sticking to my convictions… and for not giving in. I want to have integrity. I shouldn’t be ashamed of that. What is it with people who think that just because I’m not sleeping with every somewhat attractive man in sight there is something wrong with me?!?! UGH!!!! Ok I’m done venting about that!