Until we Meet again

It’s been a crazy few months! So much has happened. Jays job has had crazy hours, my Grandma Gloria passed away, and just yesterday my Beloved Auntie passed away. 

  
This post is probably going to be all over the place. I’m sad. A little heartbroken. And a piece of me longs to be in my hometown grieving with my family. 

  

I hope you can forgive me as I grieve a little in this post. I am trying so hard to focus on all of the good memories. When she taught me how to bead, or sewed the cougar on the back of my regalia shawl, when she asked me to play my flutes in front of people (even though I was so shy and self conscious). 

  

  

Auntie always had a way of making others feel special. She made everyone feel special and didn’t think twice about it. They were family and blood had nothing to do with it. Embraced with love each time they were greeted.

 

   Years could pass and the same hug would be waiting. Auntie was a modern day super hero. She took the broken and made sure they knew they were loved. Don’t get me wrong she wasn’t just a softy. She was strong and sassy and wonderful. It’s hard saying goodbye to someone like that.

   And I’m a little jealous of all the small children who were able to know her love. Because my daughter never will. I know jealousy isn’t always a good thing. But as I mourn the loss of this amazing woman who I loved so dearly, I also know that my daughter is missing out. She won’t get the opportunity to know someone so selfless and so giving. She may only hear stories. She won’t ever be blessed in the circle or listen to that contagious laugh that auntie had. I know she’s missing out.

  

  
 I feel grateful that I had the chance to love and adore such a remarkable person. I hope I can somehow learn to be a little more like auntie. I hope I can pass on some of her qualities.

    
  I love you. I will miss you. Until we meet again.