Christmas Time

Well winter is here. It doesn’t quite feel like winter but it is. Jay has been at work for the last month or so and it has left me a little stir crazy. I miss him while he is there but I am happy that he gets to get out of the house and make a little money. Me on the other hand… I might have cabin fever.Things have been pretty boring lately. A lot has been going on. Somethings I will be able to openly discuss at a later time. My dear Sophie turned a month just a few days ago. I have this burning excitement to meet her. She will be so big when I see her for the first time next month. I’ve been hearing about how her big sister, Rosie is such a wonderful and loving big sister. Can’t say that I am too surprised as she is such a sweet kid. I miss my nieces and nephews more and more these days. I wish I at least had photos to see how much they are growing. I wish they knew how much I miss them. I think about them all of the time. Perhaps someday the distance wont be so much. 

I heard that my sister Tina was offered a position as a preschool teacher. I’m so very excited for her. And I am proud of her for finishing her GED and continuing her education. I know that education is no small feat. Education takes discipline, drive, and a ton of self control. It’s hard for some and comes a little easier for others but it always has it’s challenges. I am impressed with anyone who grabs the bull by the horns and is able to complete their education… whichever level their heart desires.

Education has always been important to me. I thrive in academia, not because it is easy but because it somehow awakens my soul. I feel alive when learning. The idea of having a start and an end just makes sense to me. I am a goal oriented person so I need check off lists, deadlines, and calendar dates. That’s just how I function. Now I struggle with many other things when it comes to education, but I love my deadlines. I never thought I would say that in a million years! I guess aging has it’s way of showing you crazy things about yourself. Not everyone is like that though. Some people struggle more than others and those people are even more inspirational when they complete their education. 

Let’s go back to Christmas talk now. I’ve really been stuck on the season this year. I was excited for Christmas music and trees and decorations and everything. I honestly believe I was just trying to compensate for being away from the family this year. I still am trying to compensate. I want this to be a cheery holiday. I am doing my best to try and make the best of it. I want this Christmas to be a good one. No moping or sad eyes… just cheer. Perhaps that I am just suppressing the emotions I know would be there if I didn’t at least try to be cheery this Christmas. It’s always been about the kids for me… this year there are none. So I have to act silly. I see no other option!