All of these things

I wish I was more courageous. I wish I had all of the answers. But I’m not. I’m just me. I wish that I wasn’t so accepting all of the time because I hate getting burned. But then again… I would rather love people without conditions. Just love them to love them… that’s all. I wish that I could make people laugh all of the time. I wish that I could paint a smile on all of my loved ones faces… especially the ones who are going through a rough time right now. I wish that giggles were more contagious. I wish that I could solve all problems and take away human suffering. I don’t like to see people sad. So I listen. And I like to hear what they are thinking and where they’ve been and where they think they are going. I am so intrigued by people. I love how unique they are… despite how many comonalities they have. I think people are amazing. I love seeing people and talking to people while they are experiancing all kinds of things… that my friend is how you really get to know a person. And I like to care about them… even when it means that I might have to sacrifice somehthing that I want. And yet I realize that… that’s not always okay. Because sometimes you have to have time and energy for yourself before you can do anything for them. Sometimes you just have to put on your oxygen mask first. I think that’s where I am at right now with a partular situation… I just don’t know how to go about it. I need wisdom and discernment. What is me just being selfish… and what is me being taken advantage of? Balance my friends… see more balance.  🙂