Enchanting Simplicity
Can I be honest with you? Can I tell you the truth about my life right now? As I sit here and listen to one of my favorite bands (Mono) I feel completely at ease. I’m not usually much of a feeling person but there is something about this group that strikes a chord deep within my soul… it’s so calming. I find that no matter what is going on in my life I can turn it on and crawl into my secret hiding place, a place where I can escape from all of the sickness and despair in the world and simply breathe. It is here that I can focus on the here and now and not worry about everything that might effect me later. It is here that I can focus on this moment at this moment. Just listen to the rhythm… the melody… the harmony. It’s so simple but so enchanting. It captivates my heart at the climax and releases it only when the echo of it’s tone has dissipated from my senses. I am breath taken. I am in awe. I am alive.
A few days ago I found out that my grandfather is beyond sick. Brain Tumors and an Enlarged heart plagued my mind. I sat and read books for hours… hours of distraction but the distraction hardly held on long. I turned on the music and got lost in the lure of its creative magic hoping it would carry my thoughts into a far away land. For a while it worked. I thought of all of the good times… of all of the good memories. But when the music ended so did the magic. Reality soon set in. It sure sucks when that happens doesn’t it.
Because no matter how long I try to stay in my secret hiding place... I also know that the world doesn’t quit turning. I know that life doesn’t stop while I am attempting to hide. Everything is still there. Is it going to hurt me to escape for a few moments? I think not. I think we all need breaks at times. I like to call them mental health moments. I’m too much of a realist to stay in my hiding place for longer than the music lasts. I know that the world holds cancer and brain tumors and enlarged hearts… but I also know that there is a crescendo of random acts of kindness, everyday miracles and beautiful people.
That my friend is what makes life worth living. I know that even with the bad… there is also the beautiful. I think that this music that takes me to my secret hiding place reminds me of that more than anything. It’s not so much me hiding from reality like I would like to believe… but rather an eye opening experience that if we look at life… no matter what the circumstance that we can truly find enchanting beauty in the simplest places.
I will continue to look for the beauty no matter where I am… in the world or in my life.