{"id":717,"date":"2008-06-14T04:21:00","date_gmt":"2008-06-14T04:21:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/?p=717"},"modified":"2008-06-14T04:21:00","modified_gmt":"2008-06-14T04:21:00","slug":"717","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/2008\/06\/14\/717\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Is there something wrong with me?<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"center\"><a href=\"http:\/\/photo.xanga.com\/jshox\/fadf3193787603\/photo.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" width=\"1122\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"border-width:0;\" alt=\"overweight\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xfa.xanga.com\/df3b107a664a0193787603\/z4813465.jpg?fit=1122%2C206\" height=\"206\"><\/a> &nbsp;&nbsp;v s&nbsp; &nbsp;<a href=\"http:\/\/photo.xanga.com\/jshox\/110bf193787601\/photo.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"width:149px;height:201px;border-width:0;\" alt=\"under\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/x11.xanga.com\/0bf85651292b0193787601\/z61174102.jpg?resize=162%2C226\" width=\"162\" height=\"226\"><\/a> <\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">That is the question I pose to you.&nbsp; Every single one of my readers &#8211; if there are any at all.&nbsp; This issue bothers me to NO end.&nbsp; What am I talking about?&nbsp; Well if you haven&#8217;t guessed it yet- I am talking about being overweight and underweight.&nbsp; In real talk- being fat vs skinny<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Why is it socially acceptable for someone to make fun of and give someone who is skinny a hard time?&nbsp; Why can I have my friends and other people tell me that I am &#8220;thin as a rail&#8221;.. that I &#8220;look like a skeleton&#8221; that my legs are &#8220;chicken legs&#8221; and its okay.&nbsp; It doesn&#8217;t matter who it is coming from.&nbsp; Managers, coworkers, whoever.&nbsp; &#8220;Man, you need to eat more- you have no meat on you!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I&#8217;m skinny, or people call me skinny.<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Why is this okay?&nbsp; Would it really be okay for me to tell some of my friends that their legs look like tree trunks?&nbsp; that they are thick as an ox or that they should really lay off the food????<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">They&#8217;re overweight&#8230; fat.&nbsp; Oops.&nbsp; What did I just say?<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Can I say these things to people I work with, my friends or&nbsp;anyone? Of course not.&nbsp; How disrespectful Everyone would think I am for saying such things.&nbsp; YET it is Socially acceptable for the opposite.&nbsp; <u>It drives me nuts<\/u>.&nbsp; I don&#8217;t care so much that people say these things to me.&nbsp;<strong> I get it people, I have gotten it my whole entire life.<\/strong>&nbsp; It isn&#8217;t anything new.&nbsp; I know your thinking it.&nbsp; <em>I loathe the double standard.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><em><\/em>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><a href=\"http:\/\/photo.xanga.com\/jshox\/70034193789208\/photo.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"border-width:0;\" alt=\"jason\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/x70.xanga.com\/034c874264d34193789208\/z149486440.jpg?w=400\" ><\/a> <br \/>me in 2001<em><\/em><\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><a href=\"http:\/\/photo.xanga.com\/jshox\/7d10f193789149\/photo.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"border-width:0;\" alt=\"water2\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/x7d.xanga.com\/10ff1a7756737193789149\/z149486435.jpg?w=400\" ><\/a> <br \/>me in 2003<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><a href=\"http:\/\/photo.xanga.com\/jshox\/636ff193789231\/photo.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"border-width:0;\" alt=\"The Last Picture of Portland 146\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/x63.xanga.com\/6ffc967564c35193789231\/z149486462.jpg?w=400\" ><\/a> <br \/>me in 2005<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I&#8217;m not perfect &#8211; heck I will be the first person to tell you that, stranger or close friend.&nbsp; I am far far far from what I want to be, what I should be and I am sure that if&nbsp;most people were honest they would agree with&nbsp;me.<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">So what now?&nbsp; Nothing.&nbsp; I wanted to rant.&nbsp; Tell me what you think.&nbsp; What are your thoughts?&nbsp; Do you like the way that works?<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I also loathe lies.&nbsp; I have been talking to a friend of mine for over a year and she lied to me about something big- this issue isn&#8217;t open for discussion except I just want to say that if you do anything to me&#8230; a lie is the worst thing because my trust is the hardest to gain back once lost.<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I&#8217;m done.<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">just Pray.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Is there something wrong with me? &nbsp;&nbsp;v s&nbsp; &nbsp; That is the question I pose to you.&nbsp; Every single one of my readers &#8211; if there are any at all.&nbsp; This issue bothers me to NO end.&nbsp; What am I talking about?&nbsp; Well if you haven&#8217;t guessed it yet- I am talking about being overweight&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"_kad_post_classname":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-717","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":1641,"url":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/2013\/01\/01\/time-for-change\/","url_meta":{"origin":717,"position":0},"title":"Time for Change","author":"me@jshox.com","date":"January 1, 2013","format":false,"excerpt":"Hey Everyone Happy New Years! 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