Last night I did a pretty hard thing<\/p>\n
I told Sabrina that right now we shouldn’t be together….<\/p>\n
And so we aren’t.<\/p>\n
I know I’m doing the right thing, but on the other hand, the right thing feels pretty bad considering you know how much it will effect the other person and their feelings.<\/p>\n
I had two options. 1. Bleed the Relationship out 2. Give her time to change, or not… either way.. find out what she wants to really do.. without me in the picture, and then go from there.<\/p>\n
I still want to be good friends with her, and I feel really horrible for making her cry and feel real bad, but on the other hand, she is taking this whole thing pretty well.. almost too well. Kinda scary…<\/p>\n
The fact that maybe she won’t change. If she doesn’t I guess I will have to go from there, but right now I am going by what she said, and she said she wanted to change. I called her this morning… and she …. swore. Not at me… but… I was kinda taken back by it because I would think if we weren’t together than she would have more of a motivation to change, or not to change. We will find out in time.<\/p>\n
You all should know the last thing I wanted to do was hurt Sabrina<\/p>\n
I told her we shouldn’t see each other now, and so for now… we are on a break. Tempoary or not will be seen in the upcoming weeks\/months.<\/p>\n
As for me? I’m holdin’ up… Tomorrow’s my Dads birthday and I don’t know what to get him… ayee…<\/p>\n
If you consider the above good news, then I have a 2nd part of good news, if you consider it bad, then I have one bit of good news…<\/p>\n
Blazers beat the Rockets.<\/p>\n
Suprise suprise for me… this Thanksgiving should be something considering I will be seeing my brother in which I have not talk to him in a few years. The last time we talked we were fighting to the point where my mom stepped in between us.. (we were rolling on the floor strangling each other). Aye.. so what are you gunna do?<\/p>\n
Today I went into work and my mouth was hurting…<\/p>\n
I have a bump on the inside of my mouth, and now I have to take these meds every 6 hours so it looks like I will be up until around 1am my time so I can take the 2nd pill of the day. Oh and did I mention I have to be sitting up or staying up for another 30 minutes afterwards?<\/p>\n
Two words : Root Canal.<\/p>\n
Oh well. Maybe something will be getting better. Today was not a good day.<\/p>\n
Along with everything else that happened, I had people who told me I was a really good person and stuff.. sure thats good, but I also had people staying on the phone with me for 20+ minutes at a time just rambing on and on. I really couldn’t take it. I wanted to hang up on them… so I put them on mute (so they wouldn’t hear me) and I talked to my co-workers who weren’t on a call. By the way.. my resolves… for August were like 44% and then Sept was like 48% then in october I dropped majorly down to 33% – and today.. (we get weekly updates) I was at 19%. I swear I’m gunna go crazy – but hey I guess that is life. I will deal with it as it comes. Unexpected expenses and all.<\/p>\n
What else? I found out 100+ people got let go from my work because there was this online special that was for like 30 dollars for this microwave (people at my work knew about it and like 100 people bought multi and some just one) A special? the microwave should have cost like 200+ because it was like the top of the top of the top. Yeah.. so nobody told any managers about it and they all bought some. It was found out of the error, and then when they found out about the Sears people doing it… they were let go becuase they didn’t tell anyone about the error.. and they tried to cash in on it…. And because it was more of a moral of ethics for the company and its employees. So hopefully thats good news for me. (they’ll need me) I wanna keep this job. I like it.<\/p>\n
And what else? Oh .. last thing. I spoke to a co-worker and she said that all resolve rates were down, and I was like.. but mines at 19%!!! She was all.. don’t worry about it. I really can’t help BUT worry about it. It drives me crazy. They had people sit with me to make sure I was doing everything alright and I was-… and I’m not giving bad customer service… so they really can’t tell me to do anything better. It’s more of the callers that I am getting and the resolve rates that I am ending up getting that I and Sears just can’t control. So I should stop worrying.. but I hate my stats being down.<\/p>\n
I think thats it for the night. I could put a whole lot more.. but I think I’ve put a lot as it is. <\/p>\n
Tomorrow – I have off and is my Fathers Birthday.<\/p>\n
Ciao<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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