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Another chance to learn about me blog<\/p>\n
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I am independent. I don’t depend on anyone– even as much as my friends get close to me, I still don’t put the (thinks of the word for it) load? I don’t put it on them – or anyone. I can count on my family, that is a blessing. Everyone from My parents to Michael and Heidi. We’ve always been a closely knit group, especially with how small our family size is.<\/p>\n
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Having said that, I don’t feel that I need to ‘talk’ about what I blogged about. At least not with people to whom it doesn’t even regard.<\/p>\n
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This is my “I know it already” attitude, but I also have heard everything everyone has said before. About life, God, focus– I’ve done research on things, read books etc etc<\/p>\n
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Anyway. Cascade had some thing with their system that they didn’t add to my account, so they said I owed them 1000 more. They researched it, added some of the things I should have gotten anyway, and said that I needed to pay 500 instead.<\/p>\n
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Least everything is paid off… on the school level haha. Goodness knows I still have my share of loans.<\/p>\n
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(this is space after I remember the thing I wanted to blog about– but can’t remember at the moment — To Be Filled!) Yes.. You will have to check back later if you want to read it.<\/p>\n
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The last thing I want to post about in this blog is the term success.<\/p>\n
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I looked up the definition…<\/p>\n
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suc\u00b7cess<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/p>\n
\u2013noun <\/font><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<\/p>\n<\/p>\n<\/p>\n| 1.<\/td>\n <\/p>\n | the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n<\/p>\n<\/p>\n| 2.<\/td>\n <\/p>\n | the attainment of wealth, position, honors, or the like. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n<\/p>\n<\/p>\n| 3.<\/td>\n <\/p>\n | a successful performance or achievement: The play was an instant success. <\/em><\/span><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n<\/p>\n<\/p>\n| 4.<\/td>\n <\/p>\n | a person or thing that is successful: She was a great success on the talk show. <\/em><\/span><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<\/div>\n <\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n Why is this being blogged about? I struggle with success in life. Not really.. but then totally. To be a success in others eyes seems to be something I still yearn for. Something I still want, even if I tell myself and pray about being only successful for the Kingdom of God.<\/div>\n <\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n It doesn’t matter, I always get back into what society claims success as. I know it isn’t some posh job, or some hefty pay. I know it isn’t getting a college degree, or even getting married and having kids. I guess I haven’t come to a real defining moment as to what I personally define success at. I can tell you this, that if I had all of those things I just listed I would<\/u> consider myself successful.<\/div>\n<\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n I want to be successful, yet at every turn my life seems to go down a different route. Maybe not a good route, maybe not a bad route, just one that I don’t deem as successful. Like, a feeling of just wasting away- trying to figure out success on a personal level.<\/div>\n <\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n “I’m headed for the breakdown” – Breaking Benjamin<\/div>\n <\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n Even when I was high on life, growing daily in my personal walk. I would just work at Sears, witness to people I knew, to my friends. I would see changes and be part of exciting changes in peoples lives, yet success was not at my fingertips.<\/div>\n <\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n I am not looking for an explanation of success. These are just my thoughts.<\/div>\n <\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n “I used to wake up at 4 A.M. and start sneezing, sometimes for five hours. I tried to find out what sort of allergy I had but finally came to the conclusion that it must be an allergy to consciousness.” – James Thurber<\/dt>\n<\/div>\n<\/p>\n <\/div>\n <\/p>\n just Pray.<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Another blog. You know.. 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