{"id":1899,"date":"2013-04-20T18:58:54","date_gmt":"2013-04-21T01:58:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dropoflove.net\/jay\/?p=1899"},"modified":"2013-04-20T18:58:54","modified_gmt":"2013-04-21T01:58:54","slug":"thrive","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/2013\/04\/20\/thrive\/","title":{"rendered":"Thrive"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There has been a song lately that has resonated with me. \u00a0The song? \u00a0Switchfoot&#8217;s song from their CD Vise Verses &#8211; Thrive.<\/p>\n<p>Been fighting things that I can&#8217;t see<br \/>\nLike voices coming from the inside of me and<br \/>\nLike doing things I find hard to believe in<br \/>\nAm I myself or am I dreaming?<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been awake for an hour or so<br \/>\nChecking for a pulse<strong> but I just don&#8217;t know<\/strong><br \/>\nAm I a man when I feel like a ghost?<br \/>\nThe stranger in the mirror is wearing my clothes<\/p>\n<p>No, I&#8217;m not alright<br \/>\n<strong>I know that I&#8217;m not right<\/strong><br \/>\nA steering wheel don&#8217;t mean you can drive<br \/>\n<strong>A warm body don&#8217;t mean I&#8217;m alive<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>No, I&#8217;m not alright<br \/>\nI know that I&#8217;m not right<br \/>\nFeels like I travel but I never arrive<br \/>\n<strong>I wanna thrive not just survive<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I come alive when I hear you singing<br \/>\nBut lately <strong>I haven&#8217;t been hearing a thing<\/strong> and<br \/>\nI get the feeling that I&#8217;m in between<br \/>\nA machine and a man who only looks like me<\/p>\n<p>I try and hide it and not let it show<br \/>\nBut deep down inside me I just don&#8217;t know<br \/>\n<strong>Am I a man when I feel like a hoax?<\/strong><br \/>\nThe stranger in the mirror is wearing my clothes<\/p>\n<p>No, I&#8217;m not alright<br \/>\nI know that I&#8217;m not right<br \/>\nA steering wheel don&#8217;t mean you can drive<br \/>\nA warm body don&#8217;t mean I&#8217;m alive<\/p>\n<p>No, I&#8217;m not alright<br \/>\nI know that I&#8217;m not right<br \/>\nFeels like I travel but I never arrive<br \/>\nI wanna thrive not just survive<\/p>\n<p><strong>I&#8217;m always close, but I&#8217;m never enough<\/strong><br \/>\nI&#8217;m always in line, but I&#8217;m never in love<br \/>\n<strong>I get so down<\/strong>, but I won&#8217;t give up<br \/>\nI get so down, but I won&#8217;t give up<br \/>\nI get so down,<strong> but I won&#8217;t give up<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Been fighting things that I can&#8217;t see<\/strong><br \/>\nLike voices coming from the inside of me and<br \/>\nLike doing things I find hard to believe in<br \/>\n<strong>Am I myself or am I dreaming?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Am I myself or am I dreaming?<br \/>\nAm I myself or am I dreaming?<\/p>\n<p>Thrive, thrive, thrive, thrive<\/p>\n<p>No, I&#8217;m not alright<br \/>\nI know that I&#8217;m not right<br \/>\nA steering wheel don&#8217;t mean you can drive<br \/>\nA warm body don&#8217;t mean I&#8217;m alive<\/p>\n<p>No, I&#8217;m not alright<br \/>\nI know that I&#8217;m not right<br \/>\nFeel like I travel but I never arrive<br \/>\nI wanna thrive not just survive<br \/>\nI wanna thrive not just survive<\/p>\n<p>Yeah yeah<br \/>\nFeel like I travel but I never arrive<br \/>\nI wanna thrive not just survive<br \/>\nI wanna thrive not just survive<br \/>\n<strong>I wanna thrive not just survive<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Feels like I travel but I never arrive<br \/>\nI wanna thrive not just survive<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>[youtube http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=iBMMe5DitoA]<\/p>\n<p>So as I said, it&#8217;s a good song. \u00a0If you want to &#8211; I&#8217;ve added the song via youtube on here. \u00a0 It was a rather addicting song for me.<\/p>\n<p>The last week or so has been weird to spend without Maryia. \u00a0With most of it consumed watching the news after the Boston Marathon Bombing. \u00a0I must say that the Yankees showed so much class and support.<\/p>\n<blockquote class=\"twitter-tweet\" data-width=\"550\" data-dnt=\"true\">\n<p lang=\"en\" dir=\"ltr\">We stand united with the <a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/RedSox?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw\">@RedSox<\/a>: <a href=\"http:\/\/t.co\/RgMKEOxRmR\">pic.twitter.com\/RgMKEOxRmR<\/a><\/p>\n<p>&mdash; New York Yankees (@Yankees) <a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/Yankees\/status\/324259441715339267?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw\">April 16, 2013<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><script async src=\"https:\/\/platform.twitter.com\/widgets.js\" charset=\"utf-8\"><\/script><\/p>\n<p>The whole week has been wall to wall with news about Boston being in a lock-down state and then just yesterday they ended up catching one of the suspects from that whole ordeal. \u00a0Craziness.<\/p>\n<p>So last weekend my parents wanted to go for a drive and we ended up going over near Oxnard, CA. \u00a0While in the area we decided to go to the spot where back to the future 3 had the car crash scene with the train. \u00a0Don&#8217;t know what I am talking about?<br \/>\n[youtube http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=tu-cxDG2mW8]<\/p>\n<p>That should refresh your memory.<\/p>\n<p>Anyway, I am a big fan of all the BTTF movies. \u00a0There are various sites set up throughout the internet that has each location that they filmed at. \u00a0They pretty much did it all over California. \u00a0This part however was in Port Hueneme. \u00a0Can you make out that its the same place?<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone  wp-image-1900\" alt=\"IMG_1705\" src=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=697%2C697\" width=\"697\" height=\"697\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?w=1936&amp;ssl=1 1936w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=1024%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=768%2C768&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=1536%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 1536w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=400%2C400&amp;ssl=1 400w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=600%2C600&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1705.jpg?resize=900%2C900&amp;ssl=1 900w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 697px) 100vw, 697px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>If you have a hard time seeing it, the next one should be easier.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone  wp-image-1901\" alt=\"IMG_1704\" src=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=697%2C697\" width=\"697\" height=\"697\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?w=1936&amp;ssl=1 1936w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=1024%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=768%2C768&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=1536%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 1536w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=400%2C400&amp;ssl=1 400w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=600%2C600&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1704.jpg?resize=900%2C900&amp;ssl=1 900w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 697px) 100vw, 697px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Now can you see it? \u00a0Yeah. \u00a0I thought it was the best thing since sliced bread. \u00a0Especially\u00a0since this is pretty much a legendary movie.<\/p>\n<p>This location is no less than a short walk from the beach. \u00a0So afterwards we made a quick pit stop before heading back to LA.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone  wp-image-1902\" alt=\"IMG_1699\" src=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=674%2C674\" width=\"674\" height=\"674\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?w=2340&amp;ssl=1 2340w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=1024%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=768%2C768&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=1536%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 1536w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=2048%2C2048&amp;ssl=1 2048w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=400%2C400&amp;ssl=1 400w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=600%2C600&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?resize=900%2C900&amp;ssl=1 900w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1699.jpg?w=2244&amp;ssl=1 2244w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 674px) 100vw, 674px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Overcast or not, gotta love the beach.<\/p>\n<p>Fast forward a few days&#8230; and I\u00a0received\u00a0a call for an interview. \u00a0That was somewhat of a problem for me as I haven&#8217;t gotten a haircut since the wedding, and haven&#8217;t shaved in months. \u00a0I had to shave \ud83d\ude41 but I found a way to get around a haircut.<\/p>\n<p>See below for a before\/after photo. \u00a0That&#8217;s right, I rocked it at the interview too.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1734.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone  wp-image-1903\" alt=\"IMG_1734\" src=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1734.jpg?resize=384%2C634\" width=\"384\" height=\"634\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1734.jpg?w=640&amp;ssl=1 640w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1734.jpg?resize=182%2C300&amp;ssl=1 182w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1734.jpg?resize=621%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 621w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1734.jpg?resize=400%2C660&amp;ssl=1 400w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/04\/img_1734.jpg?resize=600%2C990&amp;ssl=1 600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 384px) 100vw, 384px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I reminded myself of something like Pat Riley (former NBA coach), so it won&#8217;t be going that way for now on- but until I land an actual job that is the style I&#8217;ll have.<\/p>\n<p>Had the interview on Wednesday and they said I should know in a week or so if they are moving forward with me.<\/p>\n<p>I haven&#8217;t heard anything yet, so &#8211; time will tell.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve started to try new perspectives of things I do or see everyday.. and today I grabbed my phone and snapped this shot.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1750.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone  wp-image-1904\" alt=\"IMG_1750\" src=\"http:\/\/dcxr7.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/img_1750.jpg?resize=529%2C705\" width=\"529\" height=\"705\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I like how it turned out.<\/p>\n<p>Anyway I suppose that is all I have for this time. \u00a0That was a lot of photos for me to post &#8211; so I hope you enjoyed it.<\/p>\n<p>until next 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