Sometimes things happen and you can’t change them.<\/p>\n
Even if looking back, you don’t want those things to happen… can’t change your past.<\/p>\n
I could be setting myself up for a deep post… but I’m not sure where its going to end up. I know what I want and need to say and just get off my chest.<\/p>\n
This is basically geared towards Sabrina.. I have had lots of time to think and digest about everything that has happened… and it is only right that I tell everyone.. including Sabrina.. this.<\/p>\n
I do regret getting in a relationship with her. I think it was rather foolish of me… and I think some whirlwind emotions made me think that I was actually in love…<\/p>\n
obviously that was not the case, I wasn’t in love… if it seemed like it was.. then it was all in my mind or just some emotions playing games with me.<\/p>\n
because I have experienced love once before in my life.. and it wasn’t anything like this.<\/p>\n
She lives in Pinole Cali., and what I did.. was flew out to San Francisco to meet her.. (if nobody knows this you all can go back to my first few posts and read all about it)<\/p>\n
We met up… held hands.. and…. kissed.<\/p>\n
That is another thing I regret… kissing her. I mean.. I am very very picky on who I kiss… she was the 2nd person (still to this day) that I’ve kissed… the first being Lori.<\/p>\n
The whole story with Sabrina is filled with regrets. I was going through rough times.. and speaking from a standpoint in my faith.. it wasn’t wise to do. I wasn’t in the right frame of mind.. I think maybe I was looking for an excuse so I couldn’t go to the Honor Academy because I didn’t feel like it was the right time for me to be leaving home.<\/p>\n
So thats all I have to say… I’ll make another post about my weekend later on tonight.. but thats all for now.<\/p>\n
Much Love<\/p>\n
God Bless<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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