click here<\/a>.<\/p>\n[youtube http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=mf-oe1Ub0CE]<\/p>\n
Moving on..<\/p>\n
Things at work have not gotten any better.<\/p>\n
I don’t want to sit here and complain and say ‘Woe to me, my life sucks’ blah blah blah.<\/p>\n
It’s fine. \u00a0I know things aren’t the way I want them and I am looking to change them – even a change in jobs.<\/p>\n
Since my last post the Blazers have continued to lose – and they missed the playoffs. \u00a0No surprise. \u00a0I suppose the biggest surprise was the Dallas Mavericks (former champs) getting swept by the OKC Thunder. \u00a0I knew they were good, but man.<\/p>\n
In somewhat exciting sports news, the Phoenix Coyotes are doing\u00a0superb. \u00a0They are one win away from getting into the Stanley Cup finals (hey that is pretty cool).<\/p>\n
Other than that.. \u00a0in Church news Maryia and myself have still been looking for a church to call home. \u00a0Last week we went to Scottsdale Bible church (we really liked the pastor) but honestly the worship was …. well… kinda saddening. \u00a0This week we went to Cornerstone Church and it felt really good. \u00a0The service was kind of a downer for me.<\/p>\n
They were talking about how you are either a guy or a man. \u00a0They had a checklist of some sort and I kept thinking to myself – – man I am really failing this list! \u00a0\ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n
I was sad.<\/p>\n
I am still a little sad. \u00a0I don’t like not liking the way things are. \u00a0I don’t think anyone does.<\/p>\n
Things will change, and to be honest things have been in the works to change now for a few months. \u00a0So despite this, I was and am looking for things to not stay the same as they are.<\/p>\n
I wasn’t sure what to think based off of first impressions, but after the service ended I have to admit that I was kinda impressed. \u00a0We’ll see. \u00a0It is good that we are getting out to different churches and finding things that will work for both of us before we really start\u00a0committing\u00a0to a church long term.<\/p>\n
The service kinda made me feel… blah? \u00a0It was a total downer for me. \u00a0I already am at the point in my life where if I see someone in the store I’ll walk the other way and not make eye contact so they won’t know its me or so they won’t recognize me. \u00a0After this service today I went to Target and ran into one of my high school friends (Meghan). \u00a0Geeze, I just darted into another isle and hoped that she didn’t see me. \u00a0At this point in my life, if I meet up with her – or someone else I will kind of have to give a run down of how things are. \u00a0I really don’t want to get into all of that. \u00a0It’s not fun & I don’t like knowing or at least having a good idea of how other people will feel about what I tell them. \u00a0You know?<\/p>\n
Maybe not, but I sure do. \u00a0& yes, for the record- I’m tired of it.<\/p>\n
Last thing that I want to say before I go, is God – I LOVE you. \u00a0Man, I really couldn’t make it though one day without you. \u00a0Every day at work, every hour – I just hang on to you.<\/p>\n
I’ll end with the Love & Death title again…. because as I was thinking about it I really see that defined as: \u00a0The Love of God and the death (or denial) of yourself for Him.<\/p>\n
Only God can make it happen.<\/p>\n
just Pray<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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