So, here I am.<\/p>\n
Blogging away at the wee hours of the morning. \u00a0I can’t sleep… \u00a0I don’t really feel tired either.<\/p>\n
As an update to my previous post about the job, I got the call. \u00a0I started a new job.<\/p>\n
It was\u00a0interesting\u00a0to me because after waiting so long… the offer was considerably less than what was originally\u00a0indicated. \u00a0Hey, that’s life. \u00a0I get it. \u00a0I started that job two weeks ago this coming Monday. \u00a0It just seems like time is pushing on by… even if just slowly.<\/p>\n
Sigh.<\/p>\n
I was curious. \u00a0When I pressed about the\u00a0monetary\u00a0value and why it was so little.. I was informed that they would not change the offer and that if I wasn’t interested they need to know now. \u00a0I told them I’d take the job – obviously. \u00a0I don’t like how they went about it. \u00a0During training someone had said something about it in and they told everyone that they could offer less due to the market being so bad – and given that they had “several hundred” applicants\/interviews for this very position when they were seeking 5 people so the selected few were the “fortunate” ones.<\/p>\n
My guess? \u00a0They picked the top of the top and kinda just screwed them over by letting them know (after they waited for an offer) they wouldn’t pay them what was\u00a0originally\u00a0indicated, and if they didn’t like it they would gladly move on. \u00a0Then they could keep going down the “yes- would hire” people list until they got to the 5 people they needed. \u00a0I mean that would explain pretty much everything.<\/p>\n
When they made my offer it seemed as though the HR person was jumping at the bit to get me to turn down the offer. \u00a0Every chance they had, they’d let me know they were in control and I had to deal with it or move on. \u00a0Not a great experience.<\/p>\n
To top it off, I requested some time off for this little thing called my wedding. \u00a0Now, I didn’t wait until this week to do so. \u00a0No, I went and spoke to the HR department on day 1 (giving them as much time as possible) given the fact that it is in August. \u00a0I see no problem with that. \u00a0Do you?<\/p>\n
Oh wait, new hires can’t take any time off for the first 6 months.<\/p>\n
6 months?<\/p>\n
Really?<\/p>\n
Wow.<\/p>\n
I made the request but before I could even get done providing an explanation as to why I needed the time off, I was told that I should have let them know before I was hired. \u00a0She reiterated to me again “this is really something you should have been up front about, why didn’t you tell us?” \u00a0to my reply “August is some four months away and every other employer I have worked for has allowed for time off after 90 days at the max. \u00a0I never thought this would be an issue. \u00a0Plus- nobody asked me at any point if I would need time off in the future.” \u00a0Plus, I wasn’t going to volunteer information that would\u00a0disqualify\u00a0myself from an offer. \u00a0She replied with something along the lines that it would have been nice to know before an offer was made so they could make adjustments.<\/p>\n
That’s my point. \u00a0haha<\/p>\n
The request is in and I am waiting to hear back. \u00a0I had emailed once to check on the status but didn’t hear anything. \u00a0Emailed a second time and\u00a0received\u00a0an email stating that the request wasn’t likely to be approved anytime soon but they would contact me when they had more information.<\/p>\n
I’ve asked others about it and from what I hear – I’d have to take a few occurrences\u00a0for it (a written warning or so). \u00a0Plus possibly other things.<\/p>\n
It has kinda been that sort of experience. \u00a0The whole thing, from start to finish. \u00a0To say that it is a little disappointing would be an understatement.<\/p>\n
I go to work every day and I feel a constant pressure within my chest. \u00a0It feels like its bearing down on my heart. \u00a0Or in that general area. \u00a0The sensation doesn’t stop when I’m at home – and only slightly eases up on the weekend. \u00a0I’m not sure I’ve ever felt this emotional about a job.<\/p>\n
I’ve not liked going in to work on previous jobs — but who hasn’t? \u00a0Typically once I am at work – things are better, easier and when at home.. I’m free = no hard feelings. \u00a0If I end up feeling sick to my stomach or anything its usually just in the mornings before I go in– but all day long? \u00a0Every day?<\/p>\n
I don’t know.<\/p>\n
I don’t know.<\/p>\n
I feel discouraged. \u00a0Don’t get me wrong, it isn’t so much about the pay (I understood previously that I’d have to take a cut somewhere down the line) – it isn’t even so much about the position and lack of … whats the word? \u00a0Lack of…. confidence in performing the tasks I need to. \u00a0It is just a feeling. \u00a0I’ve tried to shake it off.<\/p>\n
I pray and pray and pray. \u00a0I don’t know. \u00a0Did I mention that yet? \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
I thank God for every day I have. \u00a0I am\u00a0grateful\u00a0for where I am and the people that surround me (here and across the world).<\/p>\n
Despite all of that, I have this feeling that I can’t shake. \u00a0I don’t know why.<\/p>\n
I won’t keep mentioning this in future posts. \u00a0I just wanted to share with you at least once in a very honest look at my feelings surrounding this topic.<\/p>\n
Anyway, in other news…<\/p>\n
We have been getting a lot of feedback for invites to the wedding. \u00a0That’s good. \u00a0Every day is a day closer.<\/p>\n
I also want to take a minute and address the Trail Blazers.<\/p>\n
Dear Mr. Paul Allen<\/p>\n
Or If anyone from their team reads this:<\/p>\n
Please stop. \u00a0You really don’t need to try and win any more games this season. \u00a0You are only hurting us in the long run. \u00a0The best option now is to tank every game and get a better draft pick so we can build for the future. \u00a0You and I both know that a good portion of the team won’t even be with us in a few short months, so why make like any of it matters now? \u00a0Best case\u00a0scenario\u00a0(in the mind of dreamers) we make the playoffs. \u00a0Then what? \u00a0Knocked out first round or second to be sure. \u00a0Most likely in the first round. \u00a0SAY we won the championship (won’t happen) you’d have an\u00a0asterisk (*) by that ring because this season will be remembered as a lockout season. \u00a0Again, let’s not waste our time. \u00a0Please stop trying to get immediate satisfaction and look towards the future. \u00a0We both know this is the best, now it is time to put the plan into action and start anew.<\/p>\n
Sincerely – #1 Fan.<\/p>\n
P.S.<\/p>\n
I know you have a General Manager position open (who will need to make trades and do what is best for the team). \u00a0I am interested in this position and would even volunteer my services if needed. \u00a0If you take a look at my approval and disapproval of trades, you will see I can make the right decisions. \u00a0In addition the\u00a0organization\u00a0needs someone who is\u00a0passionate\u00a0about Blazers basketball. \u00a0That’s me.<\/p>\n
P.S.S.<\/p>\n
I’d also consider the head coach job that you have open. \u00a0 However my preference is GM, I am sure we can work something out.<\/p>\n
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