I wish that I could remember those times. The times when feeling pressure on my heart & chest, nauseousness in my stomach meant that I was in a time of stress. It was brief. A moment, a week… a day or maybe even a few hours.<\/p>\n
You know what I mean, right? A work deadline, a family event.. or something of the sort. But… for me? No, that is not the case. At least not anymore. Now it’s an everyday nonstop feeling.<\/p>\n
Ho hum. It is kind of just the norm nowadays.<\/p>\n
What can you do? <\/p>\n
Push forward – despite everything – just stay pushing and keep praying…<\/p>\n
“You might think I’m losing my mind, but I will shy away from the specifics<\/p>\n
Cause I don’t want you to know where I am…
\nCause then you’ll see my heart
\nIn the saddest state it’s ever been<\/p>\n
This is no place to try and live my life.” – relient K<\/p>\n
just Pray.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I wish that I could remember those times. The times when feeling pressure on my heart & chest, nauseousness in my stomach meant that I was in a time of stress. It was brief. A moment, a week… a day or maybe even a few hours. You know what I mean, right? 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