Haha, so I was just searching all over my admin page as I had momentarily forgotten how to publish a blog via the website!<\/p>\n
I think that is pretty bad and at the same time kind of funny. I suppose now would be a good time to admit that some if not all of my posts are now via my phone. I can do it anytime I like. It is nice. I use to think that I could do it all on my laptop – the portability was great versus a desktop.. now if you compare a smart phone to a laptop.. well you get the drift.<\/p>\n
What is new? In a couple of days it will be both Maryia and my dad’s birthday, yeah – they share the same birthday. I think its crazy but what can ya do? I am going to go birthday shopping sometime tomorrow. It will be limited to a very small budget – but hey I’ll do what I can.<\/p>\n
Random thought.. as much as I love DC Talk I really have moved my love for them over to Jars of Clay. It took a while – and it took even longer for me to realize that I had grown so attached to Jars. I think DC, kind of like a first love will live on as an “era” group for me. It was one of those groups that was with me in some of my most trying times throughout my teen years. I also hope that some day they come together and give a proper send off.. a fare-well album for those long-standing fans like myself.<\/p>\n Jars on the other hand, has been and will continue to be my favorite.<\/p>\n I kind of want to talk a little about my favorite song. You want to hear? Of course you do. One of my favorite-st songs from Jars of Clay is called Silence. Why? Well, I’ve posted some of the main lyrics below. The song just hits home so deeply. Years later from when I first heard it- it means something different, but just as profound. Here they are.<\/p>\n Won’t you break Did you leave me unbreakable? Cuz I…I got a question Scream Below I’ve also gone one step further and posted a link to the song via youtube. It isn’t the official video (because I don’t believe there is one for this song) but alas, you can still hear the song.<\/p>\n [youtube http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=y8iZEeQJUDM]<\/p>\n As a believer I am prone to believe that something is wrong if we aren’t constantly questioning our faith. I suppose that’s because I have always been that way. Let me also say that I do not think that questioning things is bad or wrong. On the contrary.. I think it to be quite healthy. It allows you to grow while asking questions (which one will never have all the answers to) and if you think you do then you might need more help than you think. 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So this week I purchased the Notebook (I've never seen it, but always wanted too)It is a really good movie..I love that movie. *sighs* It was a tear jerker.I will update more later, maybe\u2026","rel":"","context":"Similar post","block_context":{"text":"Similar post","link":""},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]}],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1267","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1267"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1267\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1267"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1267"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1267"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}I feel like I haven’t been blogging enough as of late…..<\/del><\/p>\n
\nScattered pieces of all I’ve been
\nBowing<\/strong> to all I’ve been
\nRunning to<\/em>
\nWhere are you?<\/p>\n
\nYou leave me frozen?
\nI’ve never felt so cold
\nI thought you were silent
\nAnd I thought you left me<\/strong>
\nFor the wreckage and the waste
\nOn an empty beach of faith<\/strong>
\nWas it true<\/em>?<\/p>\n
\nI got a question
\nWhere are you?<\/p>\n
\nDeeper<\/strong> I wanna scream
\nI want you to hear me<\/strong>
\nI want you to find me<\/em>
\nCuz I…I want to believe<\/strong>
\nBut all I pray is wrong<\/strong>
\nAnd all I claim is gone<\/em><\/p>\n