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A picture of my training area…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A quick recap: The job makes me sick to my stomach. I can hardly eat a single meal in a days time. My chest consistently feels like there is a spring that keeps winding up, with no let up. A building pressure. I feel anxious a lot. Sigh. On top of that I am also having a difficult time keeping my concentration on the task at hand while at work.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
They told us that we have 3 tests that we must score a cumulative score of 85% or better to pass training. On the easiest test I scored 88%. Surely one of the lower scores in the class. Two more, another quiz and a final. We shall see. It’s not the easiest stuff in the world and sometimes I feel so defeated… so alone. I can’t seem to accurately describe things… I just lose the words.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On Tuesday when training resumes I’ll be in the spotlight in front of the class showing how much I truthfully don’t know. Fun times indeed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Maybe one of these days I’ll find a job that’s a good fit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On other news- big news at that, my dad was laid off. Yeah- it’s a first in his life that it’s happened. Now he is looking for work and applying for unemployment. That was a trip, I mean he is the hardest worker I know no matter the circumstance or situation, he gives his 110% at all times. How could this happen to him of all people or out of any person?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hopefully all of these events will segue into something even better. I just can’t help but think that jobs are so hard to come by… even bad ones.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This week Sky leaves for Portland. She shall return the following week. Considering that we spend so much time together – it will be really weird to be apart for any time at all. I’ll miss her, but I’m sure the time will be good for her & well spent with her family.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Last bit of info was that we took Willie to the ER to get checked out as some of his meds were doing some not-so-great things for him. Turns out he needs an MRI, so now that’s in the pipeline.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Here he was in the hospital, with a Cardinals game on in the background.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Jake has been pretty cute lately. He crawls up on my bed at night and he keeps me company nearly all night. It’s becoming a normal thing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I think that’s it. I’ve started watching Grays Anatomy lately & I must say I really like the show. I’m starting behind a few seasons from the current but, I like it. I’ll probably rent the seasons I haven’t seen from blockbuster to catch up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I suppose that’s all I have for now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n just Pray.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" September. Can you believe it? In a few days it will have been 10 years since 9 | 11. How fast time moves. Last week was my first week at Chase. 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