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A picture of my training area…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A quick recap: The job makes me sick to my stomach. I can hardly eat a single meal in a days time. My chest consistently feels like there is a spring that keeps winding up, with no let up. A building pressure. I feel anxious a lot. Sigh. On top of that I am also having a difficult time keeping my concentration on the task at hand while at work.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
They told us that we have 3 tests that we must score a cumulative score of 85% or better to pass training. On the easiest test I scored 88%. Surely one of the lower scores in the class. Two more, another quiz and a final. We shall see. It’s not the easiest stuff in the world and sometimes I feel so defeated… so alone. I can’t seem to accurately describe things… I just lose the words.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On Tuesday when training resumes I’ll be in the spotlight in front of the class showing how much I truthfully don’t know. Fun times indeed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Maybe one of these days I’ll find a job that’s a good fit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On other news- big news at that, my dad was laid off. Yeah- it’s a first in his life that it’s happened. Now he is looking for work and applying for unemployment. That was a trip, I mean he is the hardest worker I know no matter the circumstance or situation, he gives his 110% at all times. How could this happen to him of all people or out of any person?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hopefully all of these events will segue into something even better. I just can’t help but think that jobs are so hard to come by… even bad ones.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This week Sky leaves for Portland. She shall return the following week. Considering that we spend so much time together – it will be really weird to be apart for any time at all. I’ll miss her, but I’m sure the time will be good for her & well spent with her family.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Last bit of info was that we took Willie to the ER to get checked out as some of his meds were doing some not-so-great things for him. Turns out he needs an MRI, so now that’s in the pipeline.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Here he was in the hospital, with a Cardinals game on in the background.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Jake has been pretty cute lately. He crawls up on my bed at night and he keeps me company nearly all night. It’s becoming a normal thing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I think that’s it. I’ve started watching Grays Anatomy lately & I must say I really like the show. I’m starting behind a few seasons from the current but, I like it. I’ll probably rent the seasons I haven’t seen from blockbuster to catch up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I suppose that’s all I have for now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n just Pray.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" September. Can you believe it? In a few days it will have been 10 years since 9 | 11. How fast time moves. Last week was my first week at Chase. It was a far less desirable outcome than I had secretly hoped for. A whirlwind week at that. A picture of my training area……<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":12174,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"_kad_post_classname":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1089","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/09\/Screenshot-2025-11-14-at-2.17.21-PM.png?fit=584%2C770&ssl=1","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1089","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1089"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1089\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12177,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1089\/revisions\/12177"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12174"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1089"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1089"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1089"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}![\"\"](\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jshox.com\/jay\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/09\/Screenshot-2025-11-14-at-2.19.35-PM.png?resize=585%2C777&ssl=1\")
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