{"id":1286,"date":"2025-11-14T21:59:21","date_gmt":"2025-11-14T21:59:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/?p=1286"},"modified":"2025-11-18T17:49:32","modified_gmt":"2025-11-18T17:49:32","slug":"nf-fear-licrks","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/2025\/11\/14\/nf-fear-licrks\/","title":{"rendered":"NF fear licrks"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>hello darkness my old friend {hello} nocking at my door again { nock times3 begging me to come outside let you back into my life now useley id be strong enough to lock the doors and keep them shut but not today im desprestt {desprestt} so go ahedd and come on in. so go ahed and come on in. so go ahed and come on in. ocd is worse then ever hands are bleeding maby i shoud take the pills thow. know whats going on with me some days i might acley think i might be skitso. franitck probley not but righting this is begining to make me spirleo.o.o god Made a promise to myself I wouldn\u2019t let the fear back in, but then I did though (Woah)<br><em>Told the world that I was sick of runnin\u2019, then went back to runnin\u2019,<\/em>\u00a0what a joke (Woah)<br>Disappointed, yeah, me too, I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not (Oh, oh, oh)<br><em>It\u2019s the same song and dance,<\/em>\u00a0you\u2019ve all seen it before<br>Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor<br>Every decision made isn\u2019t mine anymore<br><em>Like a puppet with strings, I just don\u2019t have a choice<\/em><br>What\u2019s the truth? What\u2019s a lie?<br><strong>Help me God, help me Lord<\/strong><br>Face your fears, dry your eyes<br>Grandma died, what\u2019s the point?<br>Lost the keys,<em>\u00a0lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy<\/em><br>Lost a friend, lost my home,<em>\u00a0lost my faith, lost my voice<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>{desprestt}<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>standing back watching my maching burn to ash whal i  hold the gas can asking God if he started this fire .is this what you wanted?   is this what you wanted?   make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them  to rest. is  this what you wanted? is this what you wanted?   give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is.is this what you wanted?  on the vegre on the egage is this what you wanted?  petrifed scard to death praying to God desperet. is this  what you wanted?what you wanted? is this what you wanted? hanging on by a thered. is this what you wanted? empty hart nothing less. is this what you wanted? brakeing down spriling  is this what you wanted? what you wanted is this what you wanted? standing back watching my maching burn to ash whal iis this what you wanted?  is this what you wanted?   is this what you wanted?   hold the gas can asking God if he started this fire. what you wanted?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ara-out <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>hello darkness my old friend {hello} nocking at my door again { nock times3 begging me to come outside let you back into my life now useley id be strong enough to lock the doors and keep them shut but not today im desprestt {desprestt} so go ahedd and come on in. so go ahed&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1281,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"_kad_post_classname":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1286","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/photo_2025-11-14_11-27-32.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1286","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1286"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1286\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1293,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1286\/revisions\/1293"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1281"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1286"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1286"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jshox.com\/ara\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1286"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}